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One of the things ive always wanted to do was to make haresh a good indian meal before he leaves. there's still 3 weeks till he departs, nevertheless, so much has happened and i just felt that i should make him a meal for old time's sake. attempted this north indian dish for the 1st time, and gladly it turned out better than how haresh had even tasted that dish. So glad, so contented.
well i love to physically feed haresh. and so i insisted on it. fed him one mouth and he gave me a huge hug. he was tearing. and i could feel that remorse in him. we have no idea on where we are heading to right now. its so hard, though we know that thats the right thing to do. i fed him every single bite and it reminded me so much of my relationship with my dad.
we have no idea what we are doing. we know whats the issue, we are so open about it, but it just hurts for both of us to go through it. we have made future plans with each other in mind. Its gg to be hard pursuing them without being able to be in a relationship tgt.
Theres love, but circumstances just push us to the decisions we are bound to make. for better or worst, im glad i met haresh. its good that we are both just mutual about it. for years to come, if we are still single, we would definitely give it another shot. right now we have things to do, stuff to settle. its hard to share the details, cause everyone thinks that we are crazy. It just boils down to making a choice that's going to make you rise and not simmer down. And we both need to and want to rise up.
once again, love this boy endlessly. he fed me so much of passion into my hobby of cooking. I loved cooking but i never flaunt it the way i do now. Reason being, someone made a comment to me about cooking. "dont you need to be a chef to be able to have people recognize your food". It deterred me to venture into cooking. When i met haresh, i felt like i met the perfect person to feed. he never failed to offer me constructive criticisms which was what i essentially needed in order to cook for other people's palette. If i had enough cash, i would cook and offer food for free. Well, i lack the capital. The point is, i enjoy cooking now. It keeps me happy. I love experimenting and just making tiny mistakes in my food, hoping it might taste better.
ahhhh, need to study and fulfill the dreams we are destined to live. until en, a lifestyle change awaits.
well i love to physically feed haresh. and so i insisted on it. fed him one mouth and he gave me a huge hug. he was tearing. and i could feel that remorse in him. we have no idea on where we are heading to right now. its so hard, though we know that thats the right thing to do. i fed him every single bite and it reminded me so much of my relationship with my dad.
we have no idea what we are doing. we know whats the issue, we are so open about it, but it just hurts for both of us to go through it. we have made future plans with each other in mind. Its gg to be hard pursuing them without being able to be in a relationship tgt.
Theres love, but circumstances just push us to the decisions we are bound to make. for better or worst, im glad i met haresh. its good that we are both just mutual about it. for years to come, if we are still single, we would definitely give it another shot. right now we have things to do, stuff to settle. its hard to share the details, cause everyone thinks that we are crazy. It just boils down to making a choice that's going to make you rise and not simmer down. And we both need to and want to rise up.
once again, love this boy endlessly. he fed me so much of passion into my hobby of cooking. I loved cooking but i never flaunt it the way i do now. Reason being, someone made a comment to me about cooking. "dont you need to be a chef to be able to have people recognize your food". It deterred me to venture into cooking. When i met haresh, i felt like i met the perfect person to feed. he never failed to offer me constructive criticisms which was what i essentially needed in order to cook for other people's palette. If i had enough cash, i would cook and offer food for free. Well, i lack the capital. The point is, i enjoy cooking now. It keeps me happy. I love experimenting and just making tiny mistakes in my food, hoping it might taste better.
ahhhh, need to study and fulfill the dreams we are destined to live. until en, a lifestyle change awaits.