Thoughts from a conversation.....
I know my title says thoughts from a conversation, but I will get to that a little later. For now here is a reflection on my weekend. I had a little bit of boring mixed in with a whole lot more of boring. My little bit of fun that as supposed to be had was cancelled. (I.E. the jewelry party) But oh well, it's all good.
Basically Friday I woke up got in a lovely shower and actually put on make-up. I hadn't worn make-up in like a month and a half. Anyways I went and saw Underworld II with Evard and Rob. That movie was pretty good. There was a lot of inventive/creative violence in that movie and I loved it. As far as sequels usually sucking, this one didn't. After that I went shopping with Laura. I got two new pairs of sneakers from Meijer's. Then I spent the rest of the evening watching the TV series Dead Like Me.
Today was spent well in bed. *lol* I ended up watching the rest of the first season of Dead Like Me, then watching The Brothers Grimm, and the Saturday night Anime. I also got off my ass and did some exercise. And I need to make a regular habit of that. Since I have gotten a little chubby in the tummy, thighs, and butt. *shrugs*
Well a high point to this weekend so far was a good conversation with Rob W. this evening. We first talked about the shoes I got, then pink cloths, and moved onto Orlando Bloom, and ended up talking about what kind of guys I like and the ones I have dated. I basically came to the conclusion that the two guys I have dated were inexperienced and so ended up being pussy whipped and me wearing the pants in the relationship. And I came to the conclusion that I want a man and not some pussy whipped boy. Yes I know that is harsh but the truth. I'd rather have a guy who wasn't a push over and didn't give in so easily to what I wanted. I think I like a challenge and someone a little tougher than me. I'd rather not have to wear the pants int he relationship. Through discussing that most computer guys are in experienced and so therefore can end up pussy whipped by girls it is hard to find a guy from that pool that fits my criteria. Then again there are a few exceptions.
We also discussed about testing people and whatnot. In the sense of testing limits. I think that I like to test things... to poke and prod at things. I like to know how far I can go with people. I guess you can say I am curious, and the saying goes curiosity killed the cat. *laughs*
Then the conversation switched to tedor toders. And from there to swings. Swings led to talking about jumping form them and that I liked to jump from swings because of the feeling of freedom and the feel of flying free. Then we went on to talking about wanting to be able to fly. And we both had dreams of flying as kids although our dreams were different. Mine were more of running from something and trying to jump and fly away. I would always get away at the last minute, and there was always panic before hand that I wouldn't get away. Then I would kind of kick off and float up and fly away. Then we talked about dreams of falling. I always liked those dreams because falling is also a sort of freedom. And that right before impact I'd jerk awake. Laura says that jerking awake is a defense mechanism of the body to jolt the body because sometimes when you are sleeping your breathing and heartbeat can slow to the point of stopping. Rob heard that dreams of falling happen because "when the body hits a point of complete relaxation your muscles don't feel the mattress anymore which gives your brain the sensation of falling and you can't help but catch yourself." I have also heard that if your falling in a dream and don't jerk awake before hitting the ground that you actually die. What is fact and what is fiction I do not know.
Then we ended up talking about drowning and how it is the most peaceful way to die. I disagreed with that because I kind of fear drowning a bit. Mainly in some first person video games it freaked me out. For instance in Jedi Knight if you’re under the water to long they make drowning sounds and that always freaked me out and I would have to have my sister get me through those parts. It’s not like I am afraid of the water. I am not a good swimmer but if someone tries to throw me in the water or dunk me I panic. And I always have to plug my nose. *shrugs*
And the final bit of intelligent conversation we had was about my parents and how they had and have so many restrictions. And that I was so well shy, quiet, naive back freshman year. And that theatre and the friends I made well opened my eyes and broke me out of my shell and my shadow of existence. Bringing me to the present where I am more confident in myself and a hell of a lot less shy.
But well hey I think that's enough for one night. Goodnight everyone.
Basically Friday I woke up got in a lovely shower and actually put on make-up. I hadn't worn make-up in like a month and a half. Anyways I went and saw Underworld II with Evard and Rob. That movie was pretty good. There was a lot of inventive/creative violence in that movie and I loved it. As far as sequels usually sucking, this one didn't. After that I went shopping with Laura. I got two new pairs of sneakers from Meijer's. Then I spent the rest of the evening watching the TV series Dead Like Me.
Today was spent well in bed. *lol* I ended up watching the rest of the first season of Dead Like Me, then watching The Brothers Grimm, and the Saturday night Anime. I also got off my ass and did some exercise. And I need to make a regular habit of that. Since I have gotten a little chubby in the tummy, thighs, and butt. *shrugs*
Well a high point to this weekend so far was a good conversation with Rob W. this evening. We first talked about the shoes I got, then pink cloths, and moved onto Orlando Bloom, and ended up talking about what kind of guys I like and the ones I have dated. I basically came to the conclusion that the two guys I have dated were inexperienced and so ended up being pussy whipped and me wearing the pants in the relationship. And I came to the conclusion that I want a man and not some pussy whipped boy. Yes I know that is harsh but the truth. I'd rather have a guy who wasn't a push over and didn't give in so easily to what I wanted. I think I like a challenge and someone a little tougher than me. I'd rather not have to wear the pants int he relationship. Through discussing that most computer guys are in experienced and so therefore can end up pussy whipped by girls it is hard to find a guy from that pool that fits my criteria. Then again there are a few exceptions.
We also discussed about testing people and whatnot. In the sense of testing limits. I think that I like to test things... to poke and prod at things. I like to know how far I can go with people. I guess you can say I am curious, and the saying goes curiosity killed the cat. *laughs*
Then the conversation switched to tedor toders. And from there to swings. Swings led to talking about jumping form them and that I liked to jump from swings because of the feeling of freedom and the feel of flying free. Then we went on to talking about wanting to be able to fly. And we both had dreams of flying as kids although our dreams were different. Mine were more of running from something and trying to jump and fly away. I would always get away at the last minute, and there was always panic before hand that I wouldn't get away. Then I would kind of kick off and float up and fly away. Then we talked about dreams of falling. I always liked those dreams because falling is also a sort of freedom. And that right before impact I'd jerk awake. Laura says that jerking awake is a defense mechanism of the body to jolt the body because sometimes when you are sleeping your breathing and heartbeat can slow to the point of stopping. Rob heard that dreams of falling happen because "when the body hits a point of complete relaxation your muscles don't feel the mattress anymore which gives your brain the sensation of falling and you can't help but catch yourself." I have also heard that if your falling in a dream and don't jerk awake before hitting the ground that you actually die. What is fact and what is fiction I do not know.
Then we ended up talking about drowning and how it is the most peaceful way to die. I disagreed with that because I kind of fear drowning a bit. Mainly in some first person video games it freaked me out. For instance in Jedi Knight if you’re under the water to long they make drowning sounds and that always freaked me out and I would have to have my sister get me through those parts. It’s not like I am afraid of the water. I am not a good swimmer but if someone tries to throw me in the water or dunk me I panic. And I always have to plug my nose. *shrugs*
And the final bit of intelligent conversation we had was about my parents and how they had and have so many restrictions. And that I was so well shy, quiet, naive back freshman year. And that theatre and the friends I made well opened my eyes and broke me out of my shell and my shadow of existence. Bringing me to the present where I am more confident in myself and a hell of a lot less shy.
But well hey I think that's enough for one night. Goodnight everyone.