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Title: Understanding
Author: prettyovernight
Warning: Should be able to handle a-little-more-than-implied drug references. Character death.
A/N: I've written some pretty awful pieces before, but this one... I ended up writing it backwards. And it's seriously horrible this time around. Allow me to apologize in advance.
Yesung stares at the ground and realizes just how much dirt is involved in burying someone six feet under. The smell of wet earth is overpowering, as the sun refused to make a cameo during the funeral, which Yesung finds appropriate and silently thanks whomever it may concern.
The last shovelful of dirt is packed firmly into place and people start to drift off one by one, until it’s only a handful of boys standing with their fingers all intertwined, the dates etched into the headstone in front of them reiterating the obvious -
“He was just a baby,” Heechul mumbles, “Siwon was nothing but a child for crying out loud.”
--*
It’s Ryeowook that finds him, collapsed on the cold tile on their bathroom floor, barely breathing and his left hand clenching an empty bottle while the words I don’t understand are still fresh on his lips. Ryeowook is about to scream when Donghae walks in and shrieks loud enough for the both of them. The entire household in thrown into a state of chaos as at least seven different calling attempts are made to properly explain to the operator why an ambulance is needed right away, before Kyuhyun snatches Shindong’s cellphone and manages to say all the necessary information in one breath before finding himself on the ground on all-fours, dry heaving.
--*
Service is already well underway, but that doesn’t stop Eunhyuk from walking into the church and slipping into the last pew. He’s about to fidget until he’s somewhat comfortable on the hard, wooden pew when seeing a familiar face stops him mid-wiggle.
It’s Siwon. His head bowed so low it almost touches his chest, and he’s whispering a prayer with such force that Eunhyuk is surprised the minister hasn’t heard him from the front of the chapel and stopped preaching to shush the boy. So Eunhyuk does the most logical thing in his mind - he scoots closer to his bandmate to eavesdrop.
Father, help me to help him, is all Eunhyuk manages to overhear before Siwon is crying to the point where he’s gasping for air and people are starting to look over. Eunhyuk shrinks into the pew as Siwon lifts his head and stands to leave, the back of hand smearing away telltale tears.
--*
Siwon looks like he hasn’t eaten properly in months with dark circles littering his once beautiful face, and it’s this physical change that sparks the realization that something’s not quite right with the suave member of Super Junior. The other members all turn to glare at Kibum who simply shrugs his shoulders and pads his way out of the room.
Everyone’s trying to sleep through the yelling taking place downstairs but it’s hard to ignore Kibum when he’s screaming profanities that one would never think he was capable of saying, let alone think - telling Siwon to fuck off and stop being such a nosy sonuvagun and I don’t need another mother and Siwon can be heard begging, each one of his words laced with a desperation that should never be heard from a man. A door slams shut and the last thing everyone hears before laying awake the remainder of the night is Siwon calling Kibum’s cellphone to apologize and ask him to please come in safely tonight.
--*
It all starts when Siwon walks in on Kibum to find the younger boy so high he couldn’t even manage to lay on his bed without the lower half of his body sliding off. Panicking, Siwon locks the two of them in the room and waits until Kibum comes down enough to recognize Siwon’s face. It’s then Siwon is first heard pleading with Kibum to seek help because this can’t possibly be healthy and that he just wants to help, why won’t you let me help before Kibum throws him out of the room and from that point on, left the house nightly to find a fix.
Author: prettyovernight
Warning: Should be able to handle a-little-more-than-implied drug references. Character death.
A/N: I've written some pretty awful pieces before, but this one... I ended up writing it backwards. And it's seriously horrible this time around. Allow me to apologize in advance.
Yesung stares at the ground and realizes just how much dirt is involved in burying someone six feet under. The smell of wet earth is overpowering, as the sun refused to make a cameo during the funeral, which Yesung finds appropriate and silently thanks whomever it may concern.
The last shovelful of dirt is packed firmly into place and people start to drift off one by one, until it’s only a handful of boys standing with their fingers all intertwined, the dates etched into the headstone in front of them reiterating the obvious -
“He was just a baby,” Heechul mumbles, “Siwon was nothing but a child for crying out loud.”
--*
It’s Ryeowook that finds him, collapsed on the cold tile on their bathroom floor, barely breathing and his left hand clenching an empty bottle while the words I don’t understand are still fresh on his lips. Ryeowook is about to scream when Donghae walks in and shrieks loud enough for the both of them. The entire household in thrown into a state of chaos as at least seven different calling attempts are made to properly explain to the operator why an ambulance is needed right away, before Kyuhyun snatches Shindong’s cellphone and manages to say all the necessary information in one breath before finding himself on the ground on all-fours, dry heaving.
--*
Service is already well underway, but that doesn’t stop Eunhyuk from walking into the church and slipping into the last pew. He’s about to fidget until he’s somewhat comfortable on the hard, wooden pew when seeing a familiar face stops him mid-wiggle.
It’s Siwon. His head bowed so low it almost touches his chest, and he’s whispering a prayer with such force that Eunhyuk is surprised the minister hasn’t heard him from the front of the chapel and stopped preaching to shush the boy. So Eunhyuk does the most logical thing in his mind - he scoots closer to his bandmate to eavesdrop.
Father, help me to help him, is all Eunhyuk manages to overhear before Siwon is crying to the point where he’s gasping for air and people are starting to look over. Eunhyuk shrinks into the pew as Siwon lifts his head and stands to leave, the back of hand smearing away telltale tears.
--*
Siwon looks like he hasn’t eaten properly in months with dark circles littering his once beautiful face, and it’s this physical change that sparks the realization that something’s not quite right with the suave member of Super Junior. The other members all turn to glare at Kibum who simply shrugs his shoulders and pads his way out of the room.
Everyone’s trying to sleep through the yelling taking place downstairs but it’s hard to ignore Kibum when he’s screaming profanities that one would never think he was capable of saying, let alone think - telling Siwon to fuck off and stop being such a nosy sonuvagun and I don’t need another mother and Siwon can be heard begging, each one of his words laced with a desperation that should never be heard from a man. A door slams shut and the last thing everyone hears before laying awake the remainder of the night is Siwon calling Kibum’s cellphone to apologize and ask him to please come in safely tonight.
--*
It all starts when Siwon walks in on Kibum to find the younger boy so high he couldn’t even manage to lay on his bed without the lower half of his body sliding off. Panicking, Siwon locks the two of them in the room and waits until Kibum comes down enough to recognize Siwon’s face. It’s then Siwon is first heard pleading with Kibum to seek help because this can’t possibly be healthy and that he just wants to help, why won’t you let me help before Kibum throws him out of the room and from that point on, left the house nightly to find a fix.