“Life is never easy for those who dream.”
I haven't posted an entry here for a long time. My life was a little hectic in the last months, well sure it doesn't seem like that, but it was a hard period for me especially emotionally (but I won't get into this), and I have been busy at work too. Let's see the shareable topics:
Work ~ I passed all my required exams, so YAY for that! It was hard and I was nervous like hell, but I'm over it! That was the only good thing regarding this topic. As usual we had a lot of thins to do, that's not new, we're quite used to lose our shit over deadlines and daily work. Which was new not only to all of my coworkers, but for me too, that I had an argument with one of my college. It was a serious yelling-and-throwing-things-at-eachother kind of argument, nobody dare to say anything to us, we were so loud on the corridore that even my boss took a step back to her office. Usually I avoid conflict like plague with anyone, but she got on my nerve so much I couldn't take her malicious remarks, her high-minden manners, her constant orders and the fact that she always found time to have a coffee-break while I work my ass off. I had too much and burst out very badly. I never talked like that to anyone else in my life, not to mention yelling at somebody. We haven't talked to each other for a week or two after the incident. The whole thing bothered me very much for weeks and I understood that she refused to even look at me after the things I said to her. However my bosses and my every other colleges said that I was right and I don't have to tolerate such a treatment from her. She used and still use to behave with anybody, only they didn't have to spend eight hours with her in the same office every day. Now she got my old little office where she can be all by herself. I don't know what happened to her, but we had a little celebratory gift exchange in the first days of december and she bought everyone the same gift except me. For me she bought a personal (everybody know that I collect the stuff) and more expensive gift. Of course I thanked her for that and since then we talk about work related stuff, but nothing further on my part. She on the other hand... it seems like she's trying to fix things, however I'm not sure whether she regretted her behavior towards me or just because I was the only one who tolerated her attitude before, since my other coworkers don't like her.
Love ~ I'm in love with a guy ♥! ...enough said?!? He's cute and smart and funny and... soo not interested in me that way. :( And I don't even know him that well, we only talked a couple of times, but still... Yeah, I never thought, but I'm comlicated that way.
Friends ~ I think I found a real friend in one of my college. She could be my mother regarding our age difference, but we get along very well, can talk about everything and really understand eachother. She helped me a lot to get over my problems lately, and was there for me when I was down. It feels like I've known her all my life.
I had a chance to meet my two long time no see childhood friends too. It was a rare occasion regardig that we live far from eachother and usually we're busy with work. But now Noki got home from the UK for the holidays. It was good to meet them, but we didn't have too much time to chat, because of family gatherings.
Holidays ~ Usually I love this time of the year and of course I couldn't wait to being home and relaxing, but this year I didn't have much of the christmas spirit. It was good, we get together, gave presents, have a good time, but I was missing those feelings I used to feel at christmas. Maybe I'm getting old or something IDK.
I wanted to play with photoshop and also had a lot of movies on my list to watch on and between the holidays along with my favourite shows, but I only had the chance to watch one or two, because my computer crashed down. (So I have to keep stealing my mother's laptop.) I could have been bored, but wasn't that lucky, because between the holidays I was called in to work. :/ It could have been worse, but still. At least it was quiteat the office.
In the last six years I spent new years eve at home mourning myself and that was the plan for 2010, too. But in the last minute my boss called me over her place, since she also would spend the night at home alone. We had dinner, along with a few drinks and talked all night.
I got used to these few days when I could sleep a little longer than usual, so I really don't want to go to work tomorrow morning. Plus I'm sick if I think about the amount of work that's ahead us for the next two or three months.
Work ~ I passed all my required exams, so YAY for that! It was hard and I was nervous like hell, but I'm over it! That was the only good thing regarding this topic. As usual we had a lot of thins to do, that's not new, we're quite used to lose our shit over deadlines and daily work. Which was new not only to all of my coworkers, but for me too, that I had an argument with one of my college. It was a serious yelling-and-throwing-things-at-eachother kind of argument, nobody dare to say anything to us, we were so loud on the corridore that even my boss took a step back to her office. Usually I avoid conflict like plague with anyone, but she got on my nerve so much I couldn't take her malicious remarks, her high-minden manners, her constant orders and the fact that she always found time to have a coffee-break while I work my ass off. I had too much and burst out very badly. I never talked like that to anyone else in my life, not to mention yelling at somebody. We haven't talked to each other for a week or two after the incident. The whole thing bothered me very much for weeks and I understood that she refused to even look at me after the things I said to her. However my bosses and my every other colleges said that I was right and I don't have to tolerate such a treatment from her. She used and still use to behave with anybody, only they didn't have to spend eight hours with her in the same office every day. Now she got my old little office where she can be all by herself. I don't know what happened to her, but we had a little celebratory gift exchange in the first days of december and she bought everyone the same gift except me. For me she bought a personal (everybody know that I collect the stuff) and more expensive gift. Of course I thanked her for that and since then we talk about work related stuff, but nothing further on my part. She on the other hand... it seems like she's trying to fix things, however I'm not sure whether she regretted her behavior towards me or just because I was the only one who tolerated her attitude before, since my other coworkers don't like her.
Love ~ I'm in love with a guy ♥! ...enough said?!? He's cute and smart and funny and... soo not interested in me that way. :( And I don't even know him that well, we only talked a couple of times, but still... Yeah, I never thought, but I'm comlicated that way.
Friends ~ I think I found a real friend in one of my college. She could be my mother regarding our age difference, but we get along very well, can talk about everything and really understand eachother. She helped me a lot to get over my problems lately, and was there for me when I was down. It feels like I've known her all my life.
I had a chance to meet my two long time no see childhood friends too. It was a rare occasion regardig that we live far from eachother and usually we're busy with work. But now Noki got home from the UK for the holidays. It was good to meet them, but we didn't have too much time to chat, because of family gatherings.
Holidays ~ Usually I love this time of the year and of course I couldn't wait to being home and relaxing, but this year I didn't have much of the christmas spirit. It was good, we get together, gave presents, have a good time, but I was missing those feelings I used to feel at christmas. Maybe I'm getting old or something IDK.
I wanted to play with photoshop and also had a lot of movies on my list to watch on and between the holidays along with my favourite shows, but I only had the chance to watch one or two, because my computer crashed down. (So I have to keep stealing my mother's laptop.) I could have been bored, but wasn't that lucky, because between the holidays I was called in to work. :/ It could have been worse, but still. At least it was quiteat the office.
In the last six years I spent new years eve at home mourning myself and that was the plan for 2010, too. But in the last minute my boss called me over her place, since she also would spend the night at home alone. We had dinner, along with a few drinks and talked all night.
I got used to these few days when I could sleep a little longer than usual, so I really don't want to go to work tomorrow morning. Plus I'm sick if I think about the amount of work that's ahead us for the next two or three months.