Fear
I don't think anyone would every understand my fear for dentist... because it's really not fear of them... some people say it's fear of needles but I don't think that's right either because I had some blood taken out and yes, I was scared but I let them stick the needle to my arm and didn't make my usual drama.
It's not either fear of the dentist itself, because I can see him, I can be in the office, I can let them do things that doesn't required anesthetic. But once I'm there aware that they are going to stick the needle in my mouth, I just can't control myself, I start crying and don't stop until they are finish. And to tell you the true, I really hate it, I wish I didn't do that but I can't help it, I stop thinking or I start thinking about all the drama of the last years and how I'm still struggling.
I kind of talk to my mother about it and she just told me to forget about the past and to move on. I really, really want and I do for most of the time but it's just hard once I'm in the chair.
Today he took out a teeth, a teeth that should have been pull out long time before. And I been crying for about 3 hours now, I even think I dried myself out of tears if that's even possible.
It's not either fear of the dentist itself, because I can see him, I can be in the office, I can let them do things that doesn't required anesthetic. But once I'm there aware that they are going to stick the needle in my mouth, I just can't control myself, I start crying and don't stop until they are finish. And to tell you the true, I really hate it, I wish I didn't do that but I can't help it, I stop thinking or I start thinking about all the drama of the last years and how I'm still struggling.
I kind of talk to my mother about it and she just told me to forget about the past and to move on. I really, really want and I do for most of the time but it's just hard once I'm in the chair.
Today he took out a teeth, a teeth that should have been pull out long time before. And I been crying for about 3 hours now, I even think I dried myself out of tears if that's even possible.