hate this

[minzoel]

i have not been on for a long time. thought about recovering. yeah, now i am bulimic. and fat. or fatter than before at least and i think i will gain. i feel so helpless.
i cant just not eat anymore. i wonder what happended. now i constantly think about eating. and then i purge. and thats not good.
and my brain chemistry, i think its getting messed up.

anyone knows any antidepressants (im not from the us, im from austria)