moving energy
So for unknown reasons I am very concerned about an old friend... My old phone died, the screen went completely black one day, and I don't have a way to reach them anymore. Suffice to say, the fact that I'm suddenly worried about them is a concern. I have only one way to reach them... Used to be, if I just closed my eyes and thought about them, if I sort of pushed energy a certain way, they'd show up or find a way to reach me. The last time I did this from far away, a mutual friend was talking about how she hadn't seen them in a long time when they suddenly showed up at the local watering hole they hadn't been to in months.
This is a part of my life I've been seriously slacking out on, lately. For instance, I just saw a friend but I could not read their energy at all. I did not even feel my usual energy, which is in most occasions somewhat contagiously enthusiastic, it was like a dead wall.
Why is it that every time I feel the most down about a certain situation, Chaya calls me up and asks me to hang out? Anyway... I was at work yesterday, and all signs pointed to a person I'm in conflict with. I mean, I literally just happened to look at this huge book at my work, just randomly look over at it faced out on the shelf, and the author had the same name as this person.. Only, we're not in conflict. I'm not really mad at them. I want to stay friends with them, I want to talk the way we used to. I just got rid of a bunch of emotional garbage, just so it was out there and I don't have to talk about it anymore.
Signs are another thing I sometimes ignore lately, however I've always gotten signs of things to come. This may sound weird, and I don't know what to really call them, but let's just say something will happen and I'll know the meaning, or I'll interpret a meaning and I'm always right, anyway. It just feels to me like this person is coming up again and again to remind me that I don't want to lose them in my life. So you know... As usual, the struggle to keep them in my life will probably only annoy them more. Argh! I'm such a useless person, sometimes.
So I am going to think of some people out there today and project energy and hope it works, because I'm thinking of you. In a good way. And that is all.
This is a part of my life I've been seriously slacking out on, lately. For instance, I just saw a friend but I could not read their energy at all. I did not even feel my usual energy, which is in most occasions somewhat contagiously enthusiastic, it was like a dead wall.
Why is it that every time I feel the most down about a certain situation, Chaya calls me up and asks me to hang out? Anyway... I was at work yesterday, and all signs pointed to a person I'm in conflict with. I mean, I literally just happened to look at this huge book at my work, just randomly look over at it faced out on the shelf, and the author had the same name as this person.. Only, we're not in conflict. I'm not really mad at them. I want to stay friends with them, I want to talk the way we used to. I just got rid of a bunch of emotional garbage, just so it was out there and I don't have to talk about it anymore.
Signs are another thing I sometimes ignore lately, however I've always gotten signs of things to come. This may sound weird, and I don't know what to really call them, but let's just say something will happen and I'll know the meaning, or I'll interpret a meaning and I'm always right, anyway. It just feels to me like this person is coming up again and again to remind me that I don't want to lose them in my life. So you know... As usual, the struggle to keep them in my life will probably only annoy them more. Argh! I'm such a useless person, sometimes.
So I am going to think of some people out there today and project energy and hope it works, because I'm thinking of you. In a good way. And that is all.