[it happens everyday]

[minuteofsilence]

lately i've heard nothing but evidence that there is no such thing as love. i've heard of people who have been married for years that have cheated on the other. have been married and do not even love each other. have been married and tried to divorce numerous times but have stuck through it for the kids, or for the familiarity of it all. i've heard of boys cheating on girls, girls cheating on guys- pregnant girls telling guys its their kid- when the guy got the operation without telling the girl- and now- knows for a fact the girl is cheating. i've not only heard these things, but have seen them. have been the unknowing 3rd party.(three times and counting) and im sure you all have to. my instinct as a girl is to want to pretend these things cant be true..maybe its just the people i'm talking to, maybe this, maybe that. i've been making excuses. i am coming closer and closer to believing its the truth. i tell married people i dont think i want to be married. they reply: "kid, im telling you for your own good dont do it.", "once you've done the time, you'll understand". what is love? it is certainly different than lust, than familiarity. but maybe its all the same. i got offered very matter of factly on friday to be paid for sex. from a married man. with kids. (at work nonetheless). -saturday was even worse.- some people do not even know they are being cheated on and will never find out. i have not seen a shred of evidence to disprove these things. of course once you find someone who makes your heart beat faster- you say to yourself that maybe this is different. is it ever different? someone please tell me im wrong. in the end, i guess what i really really wonder is...
what happened to romance, to true love, unconditional love, soulmates?
*sigh*