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if i could paint the sky, i would paint it green.
if i could do anything, i would fly.
i sat here long enough, staring at the empty screen, thinking of what i did that went wrong. i thought of it too much, maybe exaggerated here and there, over reacted on some parts, but i still think i was right. every little thing people do, every little laugh they laugh, it just makes me more angry. it's partly my fault for over reacting to this fight that i had with erica, but it's unfair for her to say that i shouldn't over react to it. and it was hard enough to fight with erica... then there were people who just blamed it on me for being a bitch. why can't people leave me alone.
i feel like i've been butt out from my friends. i feel like i am alone. and this feeling that i am having fucking sucks.i can't help it but have jealous ideas in my mind because i am only human. i shouldn't blame anything on anyone, but i do. i don't think this fight was the result of this whole... alienation..
i think it built up... frustration from past things i had with people. i don't htink i am losing a friend because i am not. i am just stepping a step back and leaving this distance... for awhile... maybe a week, a month, a year... i don't know.. but i don't think we will be friends.. any time soon
if i could do anything, i would fly.
i sat here long enough, staring at the empty screen, thinking of what i did that went wrong. i thought of it too much, maybe exaggerated here and there, over reacted on some parts, but i still think i was right. every little thing people do, every little laugh they laugh, it just makes me more angry. it's partly my fault for over reacting to this fight that i had with erica, but it's unfair for her to say that i shouldn't over react to it. and it was hard enough to fight with erica... then there were people who just blamed it on me for being a bitch. why can't people leave me alone.
i feel like i've been butt out from my friends. i feel like i am alone. and this feeling that i am having fucking sucks.i can't help it but have jealous ideas in my mind because i am only human. i shouldn't blame anything on anyone, but i do. i don't think this fight was the result of this whole... alienation..
i think it built up... frustration from past things i had with people. i don't htink i am losing a friend because i am not. i am just stepping a step back and leaving this distance... for awhile... maybe a week, a month, a year... i don't know.. but i don't think we will be friends.. any time soon