A Distant Memory...
yes...
I did lie to you about a lot of things, and it may have seemed at the time that the world was cruel and that I was just a mirror for the terror that supports the unreal.Everything that I have ever told you about my thoughts and my feelings toward this life and about my dad and tim...I have never lied to you about.And my love....My love for you will never die, it is an unconditional love that could never fade or cease to exist because no matter how hard I try I could never forget you.You are my life Brian....but I never want to look back on my life and ask "what if" of myself when it comes to you.I need you to continue breathing.You have cured my soul of the emptiness that so many had created.You filled the voids of my soul...Do you remember the first night I met you and I touched you for the first time? I told you that I could feel you in that you contained darkness in your soul...an abyss that was meant to be filled...I just wish that I could be there to fill it for you.I don't want to be your "used to be" or your "was" or your "could have been but isn't" I want to be your all, and I'm sorry that I can't be that for you right now.But I guess that I am asking you to wait for me...I have never wanted anything more in my life Brian...I truly and honestly could pledge my life to you at this very moment and know that I would be the happiest woman in the world for the rest of my life....
asking for the last time....
Could I be forever yours?
~Samantha Lorrin Simerly~
I did lie to you about a lot of things, and it may have seemed at the time that the world was cruel and that I was just a mirror for the terror that supports the unreal.Everything that I have ever told you about my thoughts and my feelings toward this life and about my dad and tim...I have never lied to you about.And my love....My love for you will never die, it is an unconditional love that could never fade or cease to exist because no matter how hard I try I could never forget you.You are my life Brian....but I never want to look back on my life and ask "what if" of myself when it comes to you.I need you to continue breathing.You have cured my soul of the emptiness that so many had created.You filled the voids of my soul...Do you remember the first night I met you and I touched you for the first time? I told you that I could feel you in that you contained darkness in your soul...an abyss that was meant to be filled...I just wish that I could be there to fill it for you.I don't want to be your "used to be" or your "was" or your "could have been but isn't" I want to be your all, and I'm sorry that I can't be that for you right now.But I guess that I am asking you to wait for me...I have never wanted anything more in my life Brian...I truly and honestly could pledge my life to you at this very moment and know that I would be the happiest woman in the world for the rest of my life....
asking for the last time....
Could I be forever yours?
~Samantha Lorrin Simerly~