I am indifferent, yet (I am a total wreck)
Running on two hours now, and not too well at that.
I said I'd understand, I didn't say it wouldn't hurt.
It's better to know, right? Know where you stand, know right where you are so you can starting stumbling on your way again, fumbling for the rights and tripping over wrongs and if your own head lies to you then you're really fucked, I guess.
Did you a favor, I said. I believe it now.
Pixels aren't supposed to matter this much, are they?
It's psychosomatic I think, this twisting pain in my stomach. I wasn't sure I'd keep my breakfast down. Unsettled, I'd say.
I'll probably write some angsty, pointless fic later, full of meaningless mixed up metaphors and attempts at beauty I never quite reach. Try and be something, cling onto what I am, what matters before it slips away.
takes one to know one. a stitch in time. time and tide wait for no man.
Must try harder. Or less. I took a chance on taking a step towards fixing it and I managed to make things worse. Or maybe it was already and everything just got exposed, is all. over exposure, too bright colours that hurt your eyes, things you don't want to see.
Too much. Not enough. Story of my life.
I don't know. I don't get it. I don't think I can.
file it away for future reference. wait.
goodnight lovers, haters, and everyone in between.
I said I'd understand, I didn't say it wouldn't hurt.
It's better to know, right? Know where you stand, know right where you are so you can starting stumbling on your way again, fumbling for the rights and tripping over wrongs and if your own head lies to you then you're really fucked, I guess.
Did you a favor, I said. I believe it now.
Pixels aren't supposed to matter this much, are they?
It's psychosomatic I think, this twisting pain in my stomach. I wasn't sure I'd keep my breakfast down. Unsettled, I'd say.
I'll probably write some angsty, pointless fic later, full of meaningless mixed up metaphors and attempts at beauty I never quite reach. Try and be something, cling onto what I am, what matters before it slips away.
takes one to know one. a stitch in time. time and tide wait for no man.
Must try harder. Or less. I took a chance on taking a step towards fixing it and I managed to make things worse. Or maybe it was already and everything just got exposed, is all. over exposure, too bright colours that hurt your eyes, things you don't want to see.
Too much. Not enough. Story of my life.
I don't know. I don't get it. I don't think I can.
file it away for future reference. wait.
goodnight lovers, haters, and everyone in between.