I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head.
Ugh.
Haaaaaaaaaate. Hate this. A lot.
You know what’s better than being sick? Being horribly sick for ages and then getting worse and then getting your mother fucking period. Already exhausted from coughing all night and over emotional from the self pity and being alone all week and the hormones so I’ve cried like four times today. I’m not even sad.
I mean, I kind of am, but not my usual angst. Just like, meh. lol woe is me, woe is me, self pitying shit. Trying and failing to keep my head out of the past, which is always fun. Well, sometimes it really is. But sometimes not.
I’m sorry I couldn’t keep my promise, but honestly I was just kind of desperate to not watch you cry anymore.
Fuck. Stop. Not doing that.
Oh, and now I’m working tomorrow. Class in the morning, rush for the bus, work. Fuck, I hope we’re empty. Come on, who the fuck is on holiday down here when it’s this cold? They’d have to be nuts. Maybe I’ll tell them that, or just flip the sign to closed and act innocent lol.
But, work means home, which means good food and love and seeing Stew and I can’t wait to tell them about my new career plan. They’re gonna be proud, which is gonna be awesome. I told my dad, and it was cool and all, but I couldn’t really feel it. I never do… I guess I worked too hard putting up walls as a kid.
Okay… back to the awesome. Sleeeeeeeep. Even if they ask me to work Saturday I’m still gonna get a lie in. OH AND BROADBAND. That is very awesome.
Hello random entry.
♥
EDIT: There has been much planning of the Wentzett prequel, which means it can be expected soon, which is yayness 'cause, you know, it's about time lol.
Haaaaaaaaaate. Hate this. A lot.
You know what’s better than being sick? Being horribly sick for ages and then getting worse and then getting your mother fucking period. Already exhausted from coughing all night and over emotional from the self pity and being alone all week and the hormones so I’ve cried like four times today. I’m not even sad.
I mean, I kind of am, but not my usual angst. Just like, meh. lol woe is me, woe is me, self pitying shit. Trying and failing to keep my head out of the past, which is always fun. Well, sometimes it really is. But sometimes not.
I’m sorry I couldn’t keep my promise, but honestly I was just kind of desperate to not watch you cry anymore.
Fuck. Stop. Not doing that.
Oh, and now I’m working tomorrow. Class in the morning, rush for the bus, work. Fuck, I hope we’re empty. Come on, who the fuck is on holiday down here when it’s this cold? They’d have to be nuts. Maybe I’ll tell them that, or just flip the sign to closed and act innocent lol.
But, work means home, which means good food and love and seeing Stew and I can’t wait to tell them about my new career plan. They’re gonna be proud, which is gonna be awesome. I told my dad, and it was cool and all, but I couldn’t really feel it. I never do… I guess I worked too hard putting up walls as a kid.
Okay… back to the awesome. Sleeeeeeeep. Even if they ask me to work Saturday I’m still gonna get a lie in. OH AND BROADBAND. That is very awesome.
Hello random entry.
♥
EDIT: There has been much planning of the Wentzett prequel, which means it can be expected soon, which is yayness 'cause, you know, it's about time lol.