on growing up (or growing down?)

[minus5pts]

Under Kaku-san's advice, I spent the afternoon reading through the entries and comments in this journal. While it's true that this journal's previous owner also called himself Kuroyanagi Ryou, and was also apparently traveling aboard this ship, I find little other resemblance. Even getting past the impossibility of simultaneous physical and mental

Comments

[doubleppk]

When I was twelve I didn't even talk to people so I'm definitely more talkative now.

And when I was 12 I wanted a normal life.

[minus5pts]

Do you mean to say you don't want a normal life now, Miss?

[doubleppk]

Correct. I don't want a normal life at all. Not even a little. Normal is boring. If I did have a normal life I'd just get in trouble until it wasn't boring anymore.

[minus5pts]

But there must have been something about it that appealed to you before, Miss. Normal seems nice, relaxing... predictable. Normal means you don't wake up to find you've been grown up but don't remember it and are now some sort of sailor chef judge. Are you sure you'd be bored with that, Miss?

[doubleppk]

I'd definitely be bored with that.

I don't want to die necessarily but what is living if you can't even feel alive? I want to experience life and do things like racing or sky diving. As close as I can to the edge without actually falling. That sort of thing. I'm not going to go inviting curses out of stubborness where I just ignore the warnings but predictable and safe get really boring really fast.

[minus5pts]

I'm not sure I understand, Miss. You only feel alive when you risk no longer being alive? Were you like that as a child, too?

[doubleppk]

That's about right and when I was a kid, not as much. I was a lot quieter than I am now.