Feb 23, 2010 23:14
He thinks he's SO fine.
He's created a secret Facebook group about it. I don't think he realizes that I'm better friends with more of his future brothers than he is. They love to tell me stuff about him.
I'm glad I brought down his ego if no one else has.
I misinterpreted what he meant by being "interested" because I was sleep deprived, intoxicated, dressed to be comfortable, and, most importantly, I was expecting to make a friend. I was spending my evening with people I was friends with and have absolutely no sexual pressure from (which had been annoying occasionally in the past.)
I just wanted to be friends. I still want to be friends. I just want to mean something as a person rather than as a woman. If that means no sex, fine.
I don't know how he treats all these women because I don't know him well enough.
At least I'll be remembered as the girl that's smarter than him.
I feel bad that I hurt his feelings.
It appears all the younger girls crawling all over him just go "MARINE!" and take off their pants. Good for him.
I don't care as much if I'm not sober. It's not healthy that many of my nights in the past week and a half have been not sober, but I don't know how else to cope when I need to do homework that hasn't been completed for a week. I figure I'll be okay with some more time.
This just sucks.
Respect is far more important to me than any shitty fuck-buddy relationship I could manage right now.
I think he's really cool and want to get to know him better.
I want him to understand those two statements.