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liam, again.
always, i guess.
its been very strange.
this week, i feel hes acting differently.
his weird, has become normal to me. so now he acts like an actual person and its completely freaking me out.
monday, we hang out, nothing happens (never happened) we sit on opposite couches and talk about actual things. we walk to walgreens in the sunlight to buy a toothbrush.
monday night i get the most cryptic of text messages.
thursday, i text on my walk by his gingerbread house. he responds by calling me at 2. he usually ignores any advance, if hes not feeling it. he realizes that im in bed, sleepy, tells me sweet dreams, tells me hes very sorry he missed my phone call. i say yeah, whatever, no big, next time. hes insistent that he just got the text. im confused.
friday, laying on the couch in pajamas, watching scrubs, 6:30 pm, phone rings. his voice, his whole demeanor towards me, has changed. hes softer, quieter, far more human than he used to be. he traced his toes along the bottom of my foot.
hes seriously freaking me out. this is a total 180 from the behavior exhibited for the past five months.
oh my god, i just realized, five months? really? that is either awesome.
or totally pathetic.
if only he didnt have those hipbones, and that smile. we wouldn't have lasted more than a week.
always, i guess.
its been very strange.
this week, i feel hes acting differently.
his weird, has become normal to me. so now he acts like an actual person and its completely freaking me out.
monday, we hang out, nothing happens (never happened) we sit on opposite couches and talk about actual things. we walk to walgreens in the sunlight to buy a toothbrush.
monday night i get the most cryptic of text messages.
thursday, i text on my walk by his gingerbread house. he responds by calling me at 2. he usually ignores any advance, if hes not feeling it. he realizes that im in bed, sleepy, tells me sweet dreams, tells me hes very sorry he missed my phone call. i say yeah, whatever, no big, next time. hes insistent that he just got the text. im confused.
friday, laying on the couch in pajamas, watching scrubs, 6:30 pm, phone rings. his voice, his whole demeanor towards me, has changed. hes softer, quieter, far more human than he used to be. he traced his toes along the bottom of my foot.
hes seriously freaking me out. this is a total 180 from the behavior exhibited for the past five months.
oh my god, i just realized, five months? really? that is either awesome.
or totally pathetic.
if only he didnt have those hipbones, and that smile. we wouldn't have lasted more than a week.