97.
oh my god
seriously?
i really wish you would understand that andrew is a whiney, lonely, and stupid boy.
he won't do anything for you because simply he doesn't care about anyone but himself, so do yourself a favor and get over it.
Someone left that comment on one of my old journals a year ago. I'm just now starting to see how very true that is.
We got into an argument because I asked why he doesn't talk to me anymore. He said that he's trying to busy himself so he doesn't have to think about some issues that are going on. He doesn't want to get depressed.
I keep telling him that it's upsetting to me that I'm the only one putting in any effort to this relationship. I'm always the one to ask how he is. I'm the one who calls (and he never answers). I'm the one who initiates things. ME. Always fucking me! And even when I try to start a conversation, it ends because he doesn't say much or doesn't reply. All he's done lately is make me feel like shit for caring.
He said that obviously I don't understand so he's done explaining himself.
He actually said to me, "This isn't about you, Lisa. It's about keeping my newfound sanity this summer."
AM I WRONG FOR BEING UPSET ABOUT THIS? Am I being selfish for wanting to be cared for just as I care for him? I don't think so. I guess he does.