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wonderland before me. pain...the pain...cramps, die!!!
grrr
painkillers are my best friends
so i had a strange dream again, here it is. i see this castle a lot in my dreams, i'm not sure where it's located at all, but the only way to leave it is during a very short time while the tide is out...and the feel of the castle is rather strange, i don't even know how to describe it...anyways. generally, it always appears big and expensive to keep up, and because of that they (whoever the misterious "they" are) heat only one room, others are freezing at night. in this dream absolutely unexpectedly i see a guy, who was two years older then me, we used to live in the same appartment building in Minsk. he was my first crush, and my first love, but we didn't date (it was more like us being friends, but i secretly adored him...i was 14, come on lol)Call him D. anyways, back to the odd dream.
so it's me and him there. we are getting ready to travel somewhere (it felt like when i went away to germany this summer, it's like it merged the time, and now we are going with him, as if i've never went with Jo)
we are spending the night at this place,the castle...we really did not have money at all (we had like 60 euros, and that was his money, and i didn't have any)
but he somehow negotiated for us to stay. i think somehow we got pretty drunk, jsut for the heck of it, and i went to sleep on the bed. he was supposed to sleep on the couch. but he kind of got into the bed i was in too, and i remember thinking--i'm drunk, i'm drunk , i'm drunk.then i fell asleep. in the morning we woke up and got ready to leave to visit mila (??) and she was not in toronto, but in some european country (not sure where). it was a lot of walking, we were really tired by the time we got there. the surroundings were marvelous--a lot of hills, and a long beach. on the beach we were walking (to get away from the castle during tide-out) were a lot of old broken tree trunks, brunches, and rock formations along with caves.
we finally came (somehow) to a fairly deserted place, that looked like slightly abandoned outskirts of Minsk, looking for mila's house. we figured her school was not over yet, so we decided to check out her university auditorium. somehow i think i've gone to the same university, because i knew exactly what lecture i was about to attend, as well as many people in the auditorium. however, D. was there for the first time.
after the apparent abandonment of the area, we made it to some underground tunnel...it was not even a tunnel, it was like it was a part of an underground system of communications, and one of brunched corridors was ours. there were many underground high-tech conference rooms, where there were systematic lectures. it was a little cold under there, and the light was very dim. it was like a big aacademic complex, but it felt very gloomy and overcrowded, and people were not smiling, all seemed very serious, and extremely precise at how and what they were doing. we made it to the front right part of the auditorium, that was divided into "lounges" of some sort. it looked like sections divided off just like in the theaters--i mean the real ones, remember Minsk and Moscow theaters, this is the kind of impressions i'm talking about. there was red velvet everywhere, seats looked like bog, soft, comfortable couches. the professor had a lecture presentation on comparative psychology of something, i really was not paying attention...Mila was there, and the two of us and some other fat guy who apparently was a great friend of ours immediately tarted whispeting something to each other, giggling quietly, and i felt right at home, as if the rest of the people were robots, and we were the only ones that were alive. However, i eventually noticed that D. wondered off, and i went to look for him, and found him hanging out with some other people--a really beautiful girl who was dressed somewhat like a gypsy, and a bunch of other "bohemian looking" people. i kind of felt dissapointed because i thought he couldn't cope with the new place without my help, but he really does not need me at all. however, i didn't think anything of it. we eventually headed back to mila's place. there were some cliffs around, which we went to see. we lied down on the edge of one and pretended to push each other off, and laughing our asses off. eventually we headed back to Mila's appartment (she was living with her family in half-abandoned building of concrete, the thing was huge). mila's mom showed us to get unpacked. we walked into one of the rooms, and she said it was mine. D. put down his backpack and started unpacking, and only now i figured that she wanted us to stay in separate rooms, but we were so used to each other that we didn't even think of that. she was thrown off a bit, but didn't say anything. i thought to myself that afterwards she'll have a "talk" with him about his "ammoral" behaviour. the woman looked nothing like mila's real mom, and she acted not like her either. and she seemed really into having high morals.
that was pretty much the end.
i know, i'm so strange lol
now to the real life.
talked to prof. Pitts about doing some marking for chemistry. she said it's a good idea.
talked to Anna Fitzgerald about volunteering for the department. she said she's gonna need some help with setting up the lab materials for the first-year students. she said it would be great.
finished with my stats presentation.
finished with chem project
this is awesome
i can't wait for the semester to be over...tomorrow is the chemistry laboratory test, i hope it's gonna be okay. we will basically be given a lab to ourselves and asked to purify, recrystallize,a nd identify organics. we have to know all the procedures for the mp's density determination, sublimination, recrystallization, etc......and there's nobody there to help us. we aren't allowed to talk. we will be evaluated on our results as well as our technique. i really hope i do well....
tomorrow is the biology lab test, it's a load of material, and i haven't started yet.
i can't wait to redecorate my room...positive thinking is really doing me some good, i'm not that stressed and really anxious to do everything i can to make my life more interesting. i know whatever i do is going to work for me. i know that i'm a very important part of this world, so is everybody else. it's really a wonder--the world you live in, your environment, is really jsut the reflection of your thoughts. thoughts are very material, and you can influence the world just by fixing the way you think. once you start thinking positively, you see changes, and then you can't stop! i dance. a lot. i hope to focus more on meditation once the school is out, and learning languages. self-development is the only way to change the world around you. meditation brings peace. prayer brings harmony. Goddess Lakshmi is generous. Athene Pallada is wise. all the world't treasures are at our feet, pick it up damnit. god is kind.
POS THOUGHT OF TE DAY
if god is for you, then who's against you?
PS i'm guessing i'm into the religeous phase. well, not too bad, it's made me more calm and peaceful:)
LOVEs THIs WORLd
and everyone and everything in it.
my firends are wonderful creatures, i'm still trying to figure them out.
everything will go as it should.
DaShKa
grrr
painkillers are my best friends
so i had a strange dream again, here it is. i see this castle a lot in my dreams, i'm not sure where it's located at all, but the only way to leave it is during a very short time while the tide is out...and the feel of the castle is rather strange, i don't even know how to describe it...anyways. generally, it always appears big and expensive to keep up, and because of that they (whoever the misterious "they" are) heat only one room, others are freezing at night. in this dream absolutely unexpectedly i see a guy, who was two years older then me, we used to live in the same appartment building in Minsk. he was my first crush, and my first love, but we didn't date (it was more like us being friends, but i secretly adored him...i was 14, come on lol)Call him D. anyways, back to the odd dream.
so it's me and him there. we are getting ready to travel somewhere (it felt like when i went away to germany this summer, it's like it merged the time, and now we are going with him, as if i've never went with Jo)
we are spending the night at this place,the castle...we really did not have money at all (we had like 60 euros, and that was his money, and i didn't have any)
but he somehow negotiated for us to stay. i think somehow we got pretty drunk, jsut for the heck of it, and i went to sleep on the bed. he was supposed to sleep on the couch. but he kind of got into the bed i was in too, and i remember thinking--i'm drunk, i'm drunk , i'm drunk.then i fell asleep. in the morning we woke up and got ready to leave to visit mila (??) and she was not in toronto, but in some european country (not sure where). it was a lot of walking, we were really tired by the time we got there. the surroundings were marvelous--a lot of hills, and a long beach. on the beach we were walking (to get away from the castle during tide-out) were a lot of old broken tree trunks, brunches, and rock formations along with caves.
we finally came (somehow) to a fairly deserted place, that looked like slightly abandoned outskirts of Minsk, looking for mila's house. we figured her school was not over yet, so we decided to check out her university auditorium. somehow i think i've gone to the same university, because i knew exactly what lecture i was about to attend, as well as many people in the auditorium. however, D. was there for the first time.
after the apparent abandonment of the area, we made it to some underground tunnel...it was not even a tunnel, it was like it was a part of an underground system of communications, and one of brunched corridors was ours. there were many underground high-tech conference rooms, where there were systematic lectures. it was a little cold under there, and the light was very dim. it was like a big aacademic complex, but it felt very gloomy and overcrowded, and people were not smiling, all seemed very serious, and extremely precise at how and what they were doing. we made it to the front right part of the auditorium, that was divided into "lounges" of some sort. it looked like sections divided off just like in the theaters--i mean the real ones, remember Minsk and Moscow theaters, this is the kind of impressions i'm talking about. there was red velvet everywhere, seats looked like bog, soft, comfortable couches. the professor had a lecture presentation on comparative psychology of something, i really was not paying attention...Mila was there, and the two of us and some other fat guy who apparently was a great friend of ours immediately tarted whispeting something to each other, giggling quietly, and i felt right at home, as if the rest of the people were robots, and we were the only ones that were alive. However, i eventually noticed that D. wondered off, and i went to look for him, and found him hanging out with some other people--a really beautiful girl who was dressed somewhat like a gypsy, and a bunch of other "bohemian looking" people. i kind of felt dissapointed because i thought he couldn't cope with the new place without my help, but he really does not need me at all. however, i didn't think anything of it. we eventually headed back to mila's place. there were some cliffs around, which we went to see. we lied down on the edge of one and pretended to push each other off, and laughing our asses off. eventually we headed back to Mila's appartment (she was living with her family in half-abandoned building of concrete, the thing was huge). mila's mom showed us to get unpacked. we walked into one of the rooms, and she said it was mine. D. put down his backpack and started unpacking, and only now i figured that she wanted us to stay in separate rooms, but we were so used to each other that we didn't even think of that. she was thrown off a bit, but didn't say anything. i thought to myself that afterwards she'll have a "talk" with him about his "ammoral" behaviour. the woman looked nothing like mila's real mom, and she acted not like her either. and she seemed really into having high morals.
that was pretty much the end.
i know, i'm so strange lol
now to the real life.
talked to prof. Pitts about doing some marking for chemistry. she said it's a good idea.
talked to Anna Fitzgerald about volunteering for the department. she said she's gonna need some help with setting up the lab materials for the first-year students. she said it would be great.
finished with my stats presentation.
finished with chem project
this is awesome
i can't wait for the semester to be over...tomorrow is the chemistry laboratory test, i hope it's gonna be okay. we will basically be given a lab to ourselves and asked to purify, recrystallize,a nd identify organics. we have to know all the procedures for the mp's density determination, sublimination, recrystallization, etc......and there's nobody there to help us. we aren't allowed to talk. we will be evaluated on our results as well as our technique. i really hope i do well....
tomorrow is the biology lab test, it's a load of material, and i haven't started yet.
i can't wait to redecorate my room...positive thinking is really doing me some good, i'm not that stressed and really anxious to do everything i can to make my life more interesting. i know whatever i do is going to work for me. i know that i'm a very important part of this world, so is everybody else. it's really a wonder--the world you live in, your environment, is really jsut the reflection of your thoughts. thoughts are very material, and you can influence the world just by fixing the way you think. once you start thinking positively, you see changes, and then you can't stop! i dance. a lot. i hope to focus more on meditation once the school is out, and learning languages. self-development is the only way to change the world around you. meditation brings peace. prayer brings harmony. Goddess Lakshmi is generous. Athene Pallada is wise. all the world't treasures are at our feet, pick it up damnit. god is kind.
POS THOUGHT OF TE DAY
if god is for you, then who's against you?
PS i'm guessing i'm into the religeous phase. well, not too bad, it's made me more calm and peaceful:)
LOVEs THIs WORLd
and everyone and everything in it.
my firends are wonderful creatures, i'm still trying to figure them out.
everything will go as it should.
DaShKa