my arms won't free you, my heart won't try
I do not update enough.
It could be because my life has boiled down to a couple main, rather un-exciting, things.
The first is Food Lion, where I go to sell people their yummy yummy food stamp bounty. Sometimes, I really REALLY hate my job....like, punch people in the face hate my job....but, then the second part of my day comes along and I am reminded why I am there busting my bum for paychecks.
I spend every second I can talking to my boy. Ben is doing well....he's the most incredible boyfriend, and you are all jealous that I get him. Dawn says "I'm never letting you get away." Ben says "Good." While I am sad because I miss him, the never ending joy of being in love with someone who loves me counters that and makes it okay. Our conversations have become comprised of a few key points. How much we miss/love eachother. Brainstorming about the amazing future we have together. (Right now, the plan is I become a big famous writer and make tons of cash-monies, then we move to Ireland where I can have access to society life and he can carve furniture.) We talk about being an old married couple, he's working on becoming a crotchety old man. We've decided if we ever get married, our honeymoon will be 5 days in Canada (Niagra Falls) and 5 days in Las Vegas. We compromised. :) We want to take a massive road trip to all the most haunted places in the United States, and maybe when we take over Ireland, we can find some haunted castles.
I'm driving up with my parents when they go to Massachusetts in July, only I'm not making it all the way to Mass. I'm getting dropped off in Connecticut to spend a week with Ben and his family before we drive back to Tennessee to finish up the apartment-getting. (I get to be there for his birthday!) The place it looks like we're getting is a bit small, but it's only $405 a month, and has a pool. It's right near school, and near a Food Lion I can transfer to while I look for a different (better) job. Oh yeah, about school....I'm not going back in the fall.
After a long talk with my mom, it seemed to us that the smarter (read: affordable) choice would be to take this semester off to work, maybe find a full time job that offers me some tuition opportunities. I'll probably go back part time in the spring....don't freak out y'all, I won't become trailer trash...Ben won't let me. He said he's going to make damn sure I get the degree I deserve to get. He didn't pick a dummy, and won't let me become one. He is going back to school full time...thanks to his daddy. Not going back to school right away is not a failure, it's just a different step toward the same goal...to become a successful writer and be happy.
Matty is thinking about visiting me in June, which is amazing. I miss my fag, damnit.
I've been working out, thanks to the confidence being with Ben has given me. I feel better about myself, and I want to look better to match. For all you readers that think "Uh-oh, Dawn's trying to change herself for a boy." You're mistaken....I'm finally changing me, for me. I just want to look and feel better....and knocking the socks off my sexy, sexy boyfriend is just a bonus.
Be happy for me, people...I sure am.
It could be because my life has boiled down to a couple main, rather un-exciting, things.
The first is Food Lion, where I go to sell people their yummy yummy food stamp bounty. Sometimes, I really REALLY hate my job....like, punch people in the face hate my job....but, then the second part of my day comes along and I am reminded why I am there busting my bum for paychecks.
I spend every second I can talking to my boy. Ben is doing well....he's the most incredible boyfriend, and you are all jealous that I get him. Dawn says "I'm never letting you get away." Ben says "Good." While I am sad because I miss him, the never ending joy of being in love with someone who loves me counters that and makes it okay. Our conversations have become comprised of a few key points. How much we miss/love eachother. Brainstorming about the amazing future we have together. (Right now, the plan is I become a big famous writer and make tons of cash-monies, then we move to Ireland where I can have access to society life and he can carve furniture.) We talk about being an old married couple, he's working on becoming a crotchety old man. We've decided if we ever get married, our honeymoon will be 5 days in Canada (Niagra Falls) and 5 days in Las Vegas. We compromised. :) We want to take a massive road trip to all the most haunted places in the United States, and maybe when we take over Ireland, we can find some haunted castles.
I'm driving up with my parents when they go to Massachusetts in July, only I'm not making it all the way to Mass. I'm getting dropped off in Connecticut to spend a week with Ben and his family before we drive back to Tennessee to finish up the apartment-getting. (I get to be there for his birthday!) The place it looks like we're getting is a bit small, but it's only $405 a month, and has a pool. It's right near school, and near a Food Lion I can transfer to while I look for a different (better) job. Oh yeah, about school....I'm not going back in the fall.
After a long talk with my mom, it seemed to us that the smarter (read: affordable) choice would be to take this semester off to work, maybe find a full time job that offers me some tuition opportunities. I'll probably go back part time in the spring....don't freak out y'all, I won't become trailer trash...Ben won't let me. He said he's going to make damn sure I get the degree I deserve to get. He didn't pick a dummy, and won't let me become one. He is going back to school full time...thanks to his daddy. Not going back to school right away is not a failure, it's just a different step toward the same goal...to become a successful writer and be happy.
Matty is thinking about visiting me in June, which is amazing. I miss my fag, damnit.
I've been working out, thanks to the confidence being with Ben has given me. I feel better about myself, and I want to look better to match. For all you readers that think "Uh-oh, Dawn's trying to change herself for a boy." You're mistaken....I'm finally changing me, for me. I just want to look and feel better....and knocking the socks off my sexy, sexy boyfriend is just a bonus.
Be happy for me, people...I sure am.