Love is a Battlefield.
This is where it begins.
My life untold,
to it's place finally unfold.
Creating a place of fait,
and opening the gait,
the doors of heaven and hell.
My bloody conviction,
finally forgiven.
***
I'm at Matt's again. He's working right now and I'm enjoying myself on his computer.
I came to his house, pretty much having no idea that he had gotten me something. He presented me with beautiful earings and apologized for saying that stuff he did on the phone. Telling me he is 100 percent committed to me and that made me very happy. We had amazing sex on his computer desk. It was the most amazing feeling I ever felt, intensified. It was beauitful the way we were inside each other. I couldn't believe of how much my heart was pounding and how good it felt. He has given me everything. Everything I could ever possibly want or need.
I got sick from having so much good sex though, it seems I got wounded inside again and it's creating an infection. I have to get more pills for it. Nothing like herpes or anything, no just a small infection. But I get them a lot because I keep re-opening my wounds. But Matt felt bad, so he bought me some water and snacks to make me feel better, then made me some tea before he went to work. He is so fucking sweet and caring. I love him. I don't want to ever decieve him or hurt him. I am completely and 100 percent committed to him. I only want him. I only want to be with him. No one else makes me this happy, if you people think someone else did then I was obviously lying to you and to myself. Because no one can make me laugh as much as Matt does, no one can make me feel as whole and comfortable as he does. No one else make me trust them like a friend and a lover. No one else can give me amazing sex to the point where I bleed. No one else can give me the most amazing orgasms where I can't stop cumming and cumming. My love for him is strong, sometimes it's hard to take care of it and I care so much to the point of jealousy. But, I'm making sure that's not happening right now. I'm making sure I'm not getting mad over stupid reasons! I'm proud of how far I have come. I feel complete and I only want Matt. No one else, it's not worth it to play high school games and I refuse to play them anymore. I refuse to get angry at pointless and useless things. Without trust there is no love. So, I am trusting him with my whole heart and devoting it to him. All of my faith and love is for him. Only him. I've known him for so long. Love only comes when you give it time, thought, praise, and when your patient. Never rush into anything, then it's not love. You have to know the person really well to fall in love with them and once you do, you have to take care of the love you have for them. If your not cautious and patient, you could hurt each other very badly. That's why love needs to take it's time and grow. It's like that song title, "Love is a Battlefield."
My life untold,
to it's place finally unfold.
Creating a place of fait,
and opening the gait,
the doors of heaven and hell.
My bloody conviction,
finally forgiven.
***
I'm at Matt's again. He's working right now and I'm enjoying myself on his computer.
I came to his house, pretty much having no idea that he had gotten me something. He presented me with beautiful earings and apologized for saying that stuff he did on the phone. Telling me he is 100 percent committed to me and that made me very happy. We had amazing sex on his computer desk. It was the most amazing feeling I ever felt, intensified. It was beauitful the way we were inside each other. I couldn't believe of how much my heart was pounding and how good it felt. He has given me everything. Everything I could ever possibly want or need.
I got sick from having so much good sex though, it seems I got wounded inside again and it's creating an infection. I have to get more pills for it. Nothing like herpes or anything, no just a small infection. But I get them a lot because I keep re-opening my wounds. But Matt felt bad, so he bought me some water and snacks to make me feel better, then made me some tea before he went to work. He is so fucking sweet and caring. I love him. I don't want to ever decieve him or hurt him. I am completely and 100 percent committed to him. I only want him. I only want to be with him. No one else makes me this happy, if you people think someone else did then I was obviously lying to you and to myself. Because no one can make me laugh as much as Matt does, no one can make me feel as whole and comfortable as he does. No one else make me trust them like a friend and a lover. No one else can give me amazing sex to the point where I bleed. No one else can give me the most amazing orgasms where I can't stop cumming and cumming. My love for him is strong, sometimes it's hard to take care of it and I care so much to the point of jealousy. But, I'm making sure that's not happening right now. I'm making sure I'm not getting mad over stupid reasons! I'm proud of how far I have come. I feel complete and I only want Matt. No one else, it's not worth it to play high school games and I refuse to play them anymore. I refuse to get angry at pointless and useless things. Without trust there is no love. So, I am trusting him with my whole heart and devoting it to him. All of my faith and love is for him. Only him. I've known him for so long. Love only comes when you give it time, thought, praise, and when your patient. Never rush into anything, then it's not love. You have to know the person really well to fall in love with them and once you do, you have to take care of the love you have for them. If your not cautious and patient, you could hurt each other very badly. That's why love needs to take it's time and grow. It's like that song title, "Love is a Battlefield."