Oh man, so many conflicting feelings
Today has been a lot of fun... busy as hell, as usuall, but fun nonetheless. I made some serious headway on my speech... competition is bearing down on me like never before!!!
Sari is kinda bothering me. Its nothing i really feel comfortable talking about on live journal... lets air our dirty laundry... but I just had to get at least THAT much off my chest. I still love her, of course.
Today was Hendersons BIRTHDAY! Yay! We went out for nummy chinese food at Chef Lee's. Woo hoo! Then we went to borders, and i bought mommy's day stuff for the mommies and stuff. How cool is that! I got some cutesie little books and such, and cards... I love doing stuff like that.
It was nice to hang out with the group i was with tonight. a good lot of fun, indeed. Good people.
I am having feelings about a guy that ive been trading insults and US debate with through a friends live journal. I feel bad, cause i really went about it the wrong way, and i am behaving totally out of character... but when i first saw his bashing of the US, it hurt me. I feel very strongly about my freedom, and the work that has been done so that i may have it... and for him to simplify everything and say that the government is nothing but money-grubbers... i dont know. First of all... It doesnt even make sence. Its not like the senate or the president or any of the checks and ballances of the system recieve extra money for themeselves for making the decisions they make. It is all done to serve the people.
and i am hurt, because the way he responds to me makes me feel like a child, being put down. It reminds me of times when my dad would argue complete nonsense to me, seemingly just to make me feel wrong, even though I know i am right.
It kinda makes my tummy hurt. I want to apologize for being rude, cause thats not who i am, but i dont feel like i owe it to him, cause hes made some pretty sharp barbs at me... but i started it. But he just seems so diluded... which, im sure thats how i seem to him. He says i follow my leader blindly. I disagree with a lot that Bush says and does. If id been able to vote, it wouldnt have been for him! But, i still am a US military memeber. Doing as he says is my job. Its not blindly, either. Thats what we have a nation of free people for. We dont blindly follow... we make our own decisions.
Any how, maybe I just wont respond to him anymore. I just feel like there is so much to say to him.
oh well.
30 days till China. How fuckin cool is that shit! Oh man. I got a 96% on Reading Test, and a 89% on the listening. How cool am I? I sure am trying at least. Sometimes, this Chinese thing is really rewarding... like when your teachers sit and take time to help you make it better. I guess thats what i get for actually putting the effort to speak with them outside of class.
oh man... way past my bed time
love to all.
Sari is kinda bothering me. Its nothing i really feel comfortable talking about on live journal... lets air our dirty laundry... but I just had to get at least THAT much off my chest. I still love her, of course.
Today was Hendersons BIRTHDAY! Yay! We went out for nummy chinese food at Chef Lee's. Woo hoo! Then we went to borders, and i bought mommy's day stuff for the mommies and stuff. How cool is that! I got some cutesie little books and such, and cards... I love doing stuff like that.
It was nice to hang out with the group i was with tonight. a good lot of fun, indeed. Good people.
I am having feelings about a guy that ive been trading insults and US debate with through a friends live journal. I feel bad, cause i really went about it the wrong way, and i am behaving totally out of character... but when i first saw his bashing of the US, it hurt me. I feel very strongly about my freedom, and the work that has been done so that i may have it... and for him to simplify everything and say that the government is nothing but money-grubbers... i dont know. First of all... It doesnt even make sence. Its not like the senate or the president or any of the checks and ballances of the system recieve extra money for themeselves for making the decisions they make. It is all done to serve the people.
and i am hurt, because the way he responds to me makes me feel like a child, being put down. It reminds me of times when my dad would argue complete nonsense to me, seemingly just to make me feel wrong, even though I know i am right.
It kinda makes my tummy hurt. I want to apologize for being rude, cause thats not who i am, but i dont feel like i owe it to him, cause hes made some pretty sharp barbs at me... but i started it. But he just seems so diluded... which, im sure thats how i seem to him. He says i follow my leader blindly. I disagree with a lot that Bush says and does. If id been able to vote, it wouldnt have been for him! But, i still am a US military memeber. Doing as he says is my job. Its not blindly, either. Thats what we have a nation of free people for. We dont blindly follow... we make our own decisions.
Any how, maybe I just wont respond to him anymore. I just feel like there is so much to say to him.
oh well.
30 days till China. How fuckin cool is that shit! Oh man. I got a 96% on Reading Test, and a 89% on the listening. How cool am I? I sure am trying at least. Sometimes, this Chinese thing is really rewarding... like when your teachers sit and take time to help you make it better. I guess thats what i get for actually putting the effort to speak with them outside of class.
oh man... way past my bed time
love to all.