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You asked me what I wanted to do with my life last night. I honestly don't know anymore. I changed so much in the last three years that my plans always included you. I don't have much in my life anymore without you there. I don't have many friends, and I put a lot of things on hold. What I told you is true. I honestly don't care about anything as long as you were in my future. It might seem pathetic, and that I'm selling myself short, but that is what I want. I told you that I could do anything I want, but what I want is you obviously.
I can't think of you as a friend right now. I'm always going to think of you as my partner. I can't handle the idea that one day you could date someone else, or even love someone else. Its honestly too much for me.
I know you're scared of the idea of being with someone since you were 17. I know it seems scary. I used to be scared of the idea of getting married, or just being with someone for more than 6 months. I managed to get over that without pushing you out of the picture. I just hope that one day you will realize what you did and I just honestly hope its not too late because I'm going to love you, but I can't wait around forever.
So please, figure out what you need to figure out soon. All this waiting is really killing me.
I can't think of you as a friend right now. I'm always going to think of you as my partner. I can't handle the idea that one day you could date someone else, or even love someone else. Its honestly too much for me.
I know you're scared of the idea of being with someone since you were 17. I know it seems scary. I used to be scared of the idea of getting married, or just being with someone for more than 6 months. I managed to get over that without pushing you out of the picture. I just hope that one day you will realize what you did and I just honestly hope its not too late because I'm going to love you, but I can't wait around forever.
So please, figure out what you need to figure out soon. All this waiting is really killing me.