Passive Addrexive
You may read this before we talk or not but I'm pissed and I need to vent...AGAIN
I wish I would have stayed in Cali.....why did you convince me to stay if you were going to ditch me for boys and alcohol all summer. And don't deny it because you have. And I'm pissed. You have ditched me for 2 boys and alcohol. And I'm pissed. Family and friends, especially friends are the most important to me because they have always been more like family than my own family. And don't bitch about friends ditching us for their boyrfriends with me if you are going to ditch me for boys too. What's the difference?
There have many been many accounts and I'm just fed up. I should have something before, but I hate confrontations, I hate being mad at my closest friends, and I sometimes feel stupid about the way I feel. The worst is when people will say they will change but they don't. I already feel like I can't really trust you, and now I can't even depend on you? Now you use money as an excuse not to do something, but you don't mind driving down to Eugene when you know Matt will want to go out all the time, and gas will cost you (and there is no way in hell I'm going), you don't mind going out drinking, or going to a strip club with a bunch of boys? You excuse just looks like bull shit now and it just proves to me you really can't be trusted. I have loved you to death and we have gotten along well for so long, but now I feel like I am coming third after alcohol and boys, and I'm tired of being treated like shit. I feel like I am in fucking high school again. Don't let me erase you from my life like I have all those fakes and flakes that I was friends with in high school. I already know you are a flake.....you have proved that well.
I don't know if I'm being stupid or not, but I'm hurt and you knew that a month a go and nothing has changed.
I don't know what I want to come of this. I cant force you to change or want to hang out with me. I just wanted you to know how I feel
I wish I would have stayed in Cali.....why did you convince me to stay if you were going to ditch me for boys and alcohol all summer. And don't deny it because you have. And I'm pissed. You have ditched me for 2 boys and alcohol. And I'm pissed. Family and friends, especially friends are the most important to me because they have always been more like family than my own family. And don't bitch about friends ditching us for their boyrfriends with me if you are going to ditch me for boys too. What's the difference?
There have many been many accounts and I'm just fed up. I should have something before, but I hate confrontations, I hate being mad at my closest friends, and I sometimes feel stupid about the way I feel. The worst is when people will say they will change but they don't. I already feel like I can't really trust you, and now I can't even depend on you? Now you use money as an excuse not to do something, but you don't mind driving down to Eugene when you know Matt will want to go out all the time, and gas will cost you (and there is no way in hell I'm going), you don't mind going out drinking, or going to a strip club with a bunch of boys? You excuse just looks like bull shit now and it just proves to me you really can't be trusted. I have loved you to death and we have gotten along well for so long, but now I feel like I am coming third after alcohol and boys, and I'm tired of being treated like shit. I feel like I am in fucking high school again. Don't let me erase you from my life like I have all those fakes and flakes that I was friends with in high school. I already know you are a flake.....you have proved that well.
I don't know if I'm being stupid or not, but I'm hurt and you knew that a month a go and nothing has changed.
I don't know what I want to come of this. I cant force you to change or want to hang out with me. I just wanted you to know how I feel