Numbness
i dont know how much longer i can on like this..I dont even know who I am any more.. all i know is that i am here crying again..it seems like i dont feel anything anymore..nothing...Why cant i just be happy? it seems impossible these days.. i try ad find stuff to gras on to..but theres nothing.. i feel like i am just walking thru my life without really taking anything in..Im numb.. I really am..Nothing excites me...No one reaches me.. And the one person i am suppossed to feel the most from..makes false promises and i cant trust him.. i try to.. but i cant.. i know im losing him.. but ive already lost myself...I hate it here..i dont hate college but i hate it here.. what do i have to live for.. I honestly have no idea.. I cant grasp on to anything.. not on thing...im numb. It needs to change.. icant go from so happy one day to ridiculously depressed another.. i dont wanna do it any more.. i dont wanna do anything any more... I hate it.