I got only one person on my hit list right now and that's me. Know anybody good?
All I have to say is fuck this shit.
So my sister asked me why marcus and I broke up and I totally ignored her. Why? Because I'm uncofortable about it all. I dunno how to share who I feel anymore other than happy or pissed off. THEY are the reason why I shut everything inside and end up having fucking panic attacks. My mum today started putting me through what felt like the fucking spanish enquesition.Yet again I felt like shit and the worse person ever. I frozen after she left and now she has locked her door. I can't take a shower to unwind or anything. I want to see a shrink. Someone who can't judge me just yet cause they don't know me or anything about how i feel just yet. I'm so pissed off right now and I wanna just get it over with. They say "oh you can talk to me" but really you can't. They jump on you and say it's bad. It makes me feel like a dog. Why don't you just hit me with a news paper so i know where my god damn place is. Finnaly I got myself to feel like a good person ever so slightly but oh no! Not anymore. Carly can never be that type of person anymore. You all say how great I am then I do ONE FUCKING MISERABLE THING THAT SHE WANTS AND NOW YOU CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ARE FUCKING RELATED OR KNOW HER. Well you know what everyone?
GO FUCK YOURSELF
So my sister asked me why marcus and I broke up and I totally ignored her. Why? Because I'm uncofortable about it all. I dunno how to share who I feel anymore other than happy or pissed off. THEY are the reason why I shut everything inside and end up having fucking panic attacks. My mum today started putting me through what felt like the fucking spanish enquesition.Yet again I felt like shit and the worse person ever. I frozen after she left and now she has locked her door. I can't take a shower to unwind or anything. I want to see a shrink. Someone who can't judge me just yet cause they don't know me or anything about how i feel just yet. I'm so pissed off right now and I wanna just get it over with. They say "oh you can talk to me" but really you can't. They jump on you and say it's bad. It makes me feel like a dog. Why don't you just hit me with a news paper so i know where my god damn place is. Finnaly I got myself to feel like a good person ever so slightly but oh no! Not anymore. Carly can never be that type of person anymore. You all say how great I am then I do ONE FUCKING MISERABLE THING THAT SHE WANTS AND NOW YOU CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ARE FUCKING RELATED OR KNOW HER. Well you know what everyone?
GO FUCK YOURSELF