Labo Naman
Sabi ng friend ko na iniwan din ng boyfriend niya na looking back is not necessarily mean you're still holding on, instead, looking back is just one way of checking yourself if you have moved on and have become stronger. I, well, partially agree, because she has a point, and I haven't looked back yet so I can't agree with her 100%, not until two days ago. It's been a couple of years but since my friend gave me an idea, I boldly look back.... I was shocked. (Finally, I'm willing to share my thoughts) Actually, I was envious and hurt but it doesn't mean I haven't moved on yet because I have already moved on.
I have moved on but sure you're aware of this, you might have felt this before. I felt I was olats! Talo ako! Wow, he's happy now with his new girl.. oh, wife. I was really shocked, he just met the girl and got married, I don't know why in a rush. After two years, a one and a half year old kid is there. Apparently, it was because of the kid.
Hindi ako naghahabol. He's happy and I'm happy for him but I could've been happier if I am with someone, you know what I mean. This is so unfair! He left me. I was easily replaced or should I say he left me for another. And now he's happier than me. I respected his decision (unison), he fell out of love. We both have our flaws. I have so many issues but the way he broke up with me is not just acceptable but still, I respected him. I don't wanna go on to details... Hirap mag-type, malamig and that's not the issue here.
I just wish I am with someone. Someone I can call boyfriend. Someone I love. Someone who loves me too. Someone who accepts me for being so maarte at punung-puno ng iba't-ibang klaseng trip sa buhay, pero look what I am today? OLATS! It is pride I'm talking, siya ang tagal nang nagsasaya and already moved to the next level of his life as a family man unlike me, still SINGLE! I don't see anything wrong with being single though, pero bakit ganun nauna pa siya, dapat sabay o kaya ahead ako. Tapos, may mga nanliligaw nga eh hindi ko naman type, merong... oooppss hindi ko na sila idadamay. Labas na sila dito.
Bakit ganun?! At ang malupit pa dun, he and his wife are always checking on my friendster account everytime they go online, I don't know if my status is what they're checking. Wooohhh...
Now, can I honestly say I have moved on? *Yes! Can I say I've become stronger? *Yes! But, what am I feeling right now?! *Hay, unfair!
Bakit ganun?! Ang daya. He's happily married! I'm still single!
What's happening to my world? Ang daya ng Earth!