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i had ... a dream.
it was so ..odd.
.. i saw him. in a shoe store at the mall. we bumped into each other and i said excuse me, and walked by. i looked back, and he looked at me, but we went on our way. i walked away and wondered if it was really true. if i had just layed eyes on..him.
weeks passed and i was living life day to day in a trance. living as if i were in an ordinary world. but it was so different after we crossed paths.
the door bell peirced. i walked to the door and there he stood. just standing there. just...so casually..leaning to one side with a smirk.
...
i walked out of the door and circled him once. just in a stare. he turned and followed my gaze. i was in the grass now.. off of any sidewalk or rule. he stepped down..one..two..three. stepped once..twice..
thats all it took. i ran and jumped into his arms.
so embracing so dream like...so..everything.. i was in heaven. for seconds..for years.. it could have been forever. i saw his face. his eyes closed and tears streaming. i felt my face. the same.
i hated waking up. why couldnt i have slept forever..sleeping endlessly in peace...just not having to face this horrid reality i face everyday. we arent together like we were before... things arent so easy now..
its so hard...just living without crying. just talking without wondering. just....falling asleep .. its... so difficult.
i just want us to be together again... i just miss him so much....
its so hard..
why cant heaven understand. why do the greater powers treat my heart as some... some.. game peice..some little worthless heart waiting to be broken...nothingness..
as a matter of fact..im feeling on fire.. you just dont see that...anymore....
love at such a young age..torn apart by family and...love..
*sigh*..
it was so ..odd.
.. i saw him. in a shoe store at the mall. we bumped into each other and i said excuse me, and walked by. i looked back, and he looked at me, but we went on our way. i walked away and wondered if it was really true. if i had just layed eyes on..him.
weeks passed and i was living life day to day in a trance. living as if i were in an ordinary world. but it was so different after we crossed paths.
the door bell peirced. i walked to the door and there he stood. just standing there. just...so casually..leaning to one side with a smirk.
...
i walked out of the door and circled him once. just in a stare. he turned and followed my gaze. i was in the grass now.. off of any sidewalk or rule. he stepped down..one..two..three. stepped once..twice..
thats all it took. i ran and jumped into his arms.
so embracing so dream like...so..everything.. i was in heaven. for seconds..for years.. it could have been forever. i saw his face. his eyes closed and tears streaming. i felt my face. the same.
i hated waking up. why couldnt i have slept forever..sleeping endlessly in peace...just not having to face this horrid reality i face everyday. we arent together like we were before... things arent so easy now..
its so hard...just living without crying. just talking without wondering. just....falling asleep .. its... so difficult.
i just want us to be together again... i just miss him so much....
its so hard..
why cant heaven understand. why do the greater powers treat my heart as some... some.. game peice..some little worthless heart waiting to be broken...nothingness..
as a matter of fact..im feeling on fire.. you just dont see that...anymore....
love at such a young age..torn apart by family and...love..
*sigh*..