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HELP ME PLEASE!
ok girls can someone please tell me if this makes any sense whatsoever to anyone. or am i completely alone.
lately. instead of fasting as punishment* to myself ... ive been eating. alot. a little. anything. its my form of punishment to myself coz i know how shit ill feel later. whereas hunger hurts me, im addicted to the pain that comes with the guilt. why am i doing this? does anyone else do the same? each time i do it and realise, i vow to be stronger ... but the hatred returns. as it always does.
*(for what im not sure, but im filled with such self hatred that i feel i need to punish
<3 X
ok girls can someone please tell me if this makes any sense whatsoever to anyone. or am i completely alone.
lately. instead of fasting as punishment* to myself ... ive been eating. alot. a little. anything. its my form of punishment to myself coz i know how shit ill feel later. whereas hunger hurts me, im addicted to the pain that comes with the guilt. why am i doing this? does anyone else do the same? each time i do it and realise, i vow to be stronger ... but the hatred returns. as it always does.
*(for what im not sure, but im filled with such self hatred that i feel i need to punish
<3 X