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this entry will be pointless and none of you should waste your time reading this, unless your name is emily augello, its basically just me getting some things out of my system.
It hurts when i think of how something so stupid as time apart can interere with something so amazing. Why do things have to be this way. more importantly why do things like this always happen.
just when i begin to become happy everything crumbles in front of me. it's only been two months, two months and i'll only be able to see her once every week, if that throughout the whole summer. God i wish things could be different. But i know these things are a gigantic part of her life and would never want her to take time away from that. I just wish i could be apart of that too. and if there wasnt this stupid age difference where she isn't allowed to do anyhting with me because i'm older. why does graduatiing bring so much crap along wiht it? i don't understand why things can't just stay the same... i mean i don't feel any different than i ever have. And i don't know what to do now. but i know what she's thinking. and i don't want things to get worse for her just because shes with me.
whatever happens though, i just hope that we can stay close. and if things were meant to be then maybe when there is less conflicts then we could make it happen again. i don't know. but i'm just grateful for the time we've spent together, and i wouldn't trade it for anything. thank you em.
*I <3 Emily*
It hurts when i think of how something so stupid as time apart can interere with something so amazing. Why do things have to be this way. more importantly why do things like this always happen.
just when i begin to become happy everything crumbles in front of me. it's only been two months, two months and i'll only be able to see her once every week, if that throughout the whole summer. God i wish things could be different. But i know these things are a gigantic part of her life and would never want her to take time away from that. I just wish i could be apart of that too. and if there wasnt this stupid age difference where she isn't allowed to do anyhting with me because i'm older. why does graduatiing bring so much crap along wiht it? i don't understand why things can't just stay the same... i mean i don't feel any different than i ever have. And i don't know what to do now. but i know what she's thinking. and i don't want things to get worse for her just because shes with me.
whatever happens though, i just hope that we can stay close. and if things were meant to be then maybe when there is less conflicts then we could make it happen again. i don't know. but i'm just grateful for the time we've spent together, and i wouldn't trade it for anything. thank you em.
*I <3 Emily*