dont read if u dont wanna listen to ranting/complaining
im in such a weird mood right now. im not even sure y. like i had a really really good day...school was actually fun-ishhhh and my friends are great. and this week has been pretty fun so far, monday i saw josh and yesterday i hung out with my awesome ladies. so i dont really know what it even is. ive just been doing some thinking lately about eeeeeeverything...and its scaring me. just thinking about how much people change...looking back to our 8th grade days when we were hideous...but everything was so like simple back then. lately its not. i guess its just part of growing up, but i feel like everythings so different lately. i feel like even im really different. and i hate drifting and i hate losing closeness with people.
today me and kara discussed how much our school freakin sux and everyone in in, with the exception of some special people. everyone thinks about themselves and is so busy hating other people that they dont even have time to just live their frikin life and stop thinking theyre better than everyone. i frikin hate people like that. me and kara decided we're gonna steal a car, get fake ID's, and rob a bank so we can go get makeovers and get really hot, then go clubbing. cuz we're sick of this fucking town and neeeeed to get out...ive been noticing that so much lately. i just wanna get out of this town and go to college and escape the freakin world of ghs and all the stupid drama and shit. i hate it.
im also wicked stressed out lately. i feel like my grades have slipped so much this year, the most important year of high school. like it doesnt even faze me anymore to get an F on something...before i woulda freaked out. i dont even do much hw lately. i feel like i barely see josh anymore...i miss when we used to hang out like every day. all i wanna do is see him and my friends and hang out and be social and theres just so much other stuff to think about. i love being in the play and acting...but i need a job so bad and i cant even buy anyone xmas presents this year. i hate having no money...but i wanna do the play. and my dad pretty much hates me for never going there...but i hate it there and im just not happy being there anymore, and all i wanna do is escape even when i am there. i want the summer again. more than anything.
im really sorry about complaining. im just pissed off today. aaaaand my mom is basically like forcing me to go to my grandpas on sunday...i dont get a choice cuz im not 16 or anything...hopefully friday will be fun at least.
blech. i need a nap before rehearsal. ha. or the piles of hw i have. i hate crazy wilkins.
~em
today me and kara discussed how much our school freakin sux and everyone in in, with the exception of some special people. everyone thinks about themselves and is so busy hating other people that they dont even have time to just live their frikin life and stop thinking theyre better than everyone. i frikin hate people like that. me and kara decided we're gonna steal a car, get fake ID's, and rob a bank so we can go get makeovers and get really hot, then go clubbing. cuz we're sick of this fucking town and neeeeed to get out...ive been noticing that so much lately. i just wanna get out of this town and go to college and escape the freakin world of ghs and all the stupid drama and shit. i hate it.
im also wicked stressed out lately. i feel like my grades have slipped so much this year, the most important year of high school. like it doesnt even faze me anymore to get an F on something...before i woulda freaked out. i dont even do much hw lately. i feel like i barely see josh anymore...i miss when we used to hang out like every day. all i wanna do is see him and my friends and hang out and be social and theres just so much other stuff to think about. i love being in the play and acting...but i need a job so bad and i cant even buy anyone xmas presents this year. i hate having no money...but i wanna do the play. and my dad pretty much hates me for never going there...but i hate it there and im just not happy being there anymore, and all i wanna do is escape even when i am there. i want the summer again. more than anything.
im really sorry about complaining. im just pissed off today. aaaaand my mom is basically like forcing me to go to my grandpas on sunday...i dont get a choice cuz im not 16 or anything...hopefully friday will be fun at least.
blech. i need a nap before rehearsal. ha. or the piles of hw i have. i hate crazy wilkins.
~em