one more morning
I will never be enough. Not for him, not for them, not for anything. Not even for me.
I'm always saying that I hate being the perpetual runner up, second best for all time. But now I don't even think I could make the top ten. And I don't just mean in theatre. I mean in friendships, family, opportunities, love, life... pretty much everything. I just wish that I could know the feeling of being "the one" who is just a little above the rest. Just in one thing or with one person. I want to know what that's like. But I know I never will. I will always be the one who is involved, but always just a little on the outside. I'm not mad. It just sucks. And I can't change it.