Is this THE ONE?
It was an exhausting day. Well, yesterday now. But I haven't gone to bed yet so to me it's still today.
We have been shopping for a home to buy for a few months now. It seemed so far away though, like it would never happen. And then today, bam - we looked at a condominium and we made an offer.
Part of me wants it so bad because the inside is just so lovely... especially the kitchen. And then there's a part of me that doesn't want it because this particular condo has such a small small and I mean small patio and it doesn't have a pool. In our price range, we're not likely going to get everything we want... so between things like a pool, attached garage, inside laundry (no way in hell will I ever go back to community laundry), and some other things we wanted, it was best to let go of the pool.
This afternoon and evening was a frenzy of getting an offer letter written, making a mad dash to answer student emails for my work, keeping Evie snacked and entertained, getting paperwork together, getting Evie to her show rehearsal, signing endless things on an endless document, getting Evie fed, getting her to bed, talking to the realtor several times to get clarification on some things, getting some food for ourselves. And now it's after midnight. I have a headache and I feel absolutely exhausted.
I want this as badly and I don't want it. What if there's something better out there for us and we are shortchanging ourselves by choosing something now rather than waiting for THE ONE. Or is the home we bid on today THE ONE?
And now it's a matter of waiting at least 72 hours before we get an answer. There is at least one other offer on the table and they'll likely get more. There's no guarantee that our offer will be accepted. So come early next week it might be back to the drawing board. I feel simultaneously relieved and disappointed at this prospect.