Control.
Tonight was the Blue Roast. I spent the evening with 
pink_pinkies,
wingspread, Rome, Abby, Ani and Joyce. I have to honestly say I didn't enjoy the beer much and that the blue rose wasn't as pretty as I thought it would be, but the company was sooo worth it. We ended up going to Eastwood for a while for some peace and quiet (and chairs to sit on). Cafe Xocolat was a blast! Everything was laced with liquor; too bad I didn't get tipsy in the least, just warm. ;p
Blue Roast started weirdly, with stares from Smiley. I mean, we were never close or anything, just blockmates in a couple of classes. And whenever I'd encounter him before, even just months after we were blockmates, I'd usually initiate the hi's and hello's. So when I saw him at the entrance, I thought he just happened to see me, and I wasn't planning to say hi because I wasn't really sure if he saw me or even recognized me. But when I looked back thrice he was still looking at me. So I said hi. It was weird. Come to think of it, he's been like that every time I saw him these past few weeks. The even weirder thing is that.. I don't think I'm his type, if you catch my drift. ;p
This would've been a great theme song for Blue Roast's blue rose tradition:
For You I Will (Confidence)
Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would
That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
Yep. But then again, there are some things that just aren't meant to be. I did get a nice blue rose from Ninnapwee
pink_pinkies though. Thank you! :D We decided to give each other our blue roses if there were no potentials to give the blue rose to; and no, even though I often joke about it, I am not lesbian and we are not a couple. ;p She's just like the sister I never had. :)
I can't say that I have no regrets, regarding both my college years and tonight. I guess I just have to accept the way things are as they are, and though I don't want to let the moment pass me by, I think I just have to sit back and let it. Because, again, some things are just not meant to be.
But all in all, tonight was great. Great company, yummy food abd drinks in Cafe Xocolat, cam-whoring with some of my favorite people, a picture with Fr. Ben, "ooh!"-worthy fireworks, and great friendships. Kudos to the Blue Roast committee, btw. Quoting from an Eve6 song: "Here's to the nights we felt alive." It might have not been the happiest night of my life. I had many ups and downs in a span of 5 hours. And as cheesy as it sounds, I've never felt more alive. :)
pink_pinkies,
wingspread, Rome, Abby, Ani and Joyce. I have to honestly say I didn't enjoy the beer much and that the blue rose wasn't as pretty as I thought it would be, but the company was sooo worth it. We ended up going to Eastwood for a while for some peace and quiet (and chairs to sit on). Cafe Xocolat was a blast! Everything was laced with liquor; too bad I didn't get tipsy in the least, just warm. ;p
Blue Roast started weirdly, with stares from Smiley. I mean, we were never close or anything, just blockmates in a couple of classes. And whenever I'd encounter him before, even just months after we were blockmates, I'd usually initiate the hi's and hello's. So when I saw him at the entrance, I thought he just happened to see me, and I wasn't planning to say hi because I wasn't really sure if he saw me or even recognized me. But when I looked back thrice he was still looking at me. So I said hi. It was weird. Come to think of it, he's been like that every time I saw him these past few weeks. The even weirder thing is that.. I don't think I'm his type, if you catch my drift. ;p
This would've been a great theme song for Blue Roast's blue rose tradition:
For You I Will (Confidence)
Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would
That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
Yep. But then again, there are some things that just aren't meant to be. I did get a nice blue rose from Ninnapwee
pink_pinkies though. Thank you! :D We decided to give each other our blue roses if there were no potentials to give the blue rose to; and no, even though I often joke about it, I am not lesbian and we are not a couple. ;p She's just like the sister I never had. :)
I can't say that I have no regrets, regarding both my college years and tonight. I guess I just have to accept the way things are as they are, and though I don't want to let the moment pass me by, I think I just have to sit back and let it. Because, again, some things are just not meant to be.
But all in all, tonight was great. Great company, yummy food abd drinks in Cafe Xocolat, cam-whoring with some of my favorite people, a picture with Fr. Ben, "ooh!"-worthy fireworks, and great friendships. Kudos to the Blue Roast committee, btw. Quoting from an Eve6 song: "Here's to the nights we felt alive." It might have not been the happiest night of my life. I had many ups and downs in a span of 5 hours. And as cheesy as it sounds, I've never felt more alive. :)