Whoa...is me
A lot has happened since I last posted. Feels like a year has gone by with all the shit that has gone down.
Major thing that happened; I came out to my parents. Trust me, it was a crash landing type of coming out. Not pleasent; but looking back on it could have been a lot worse. I basically had to come out because my mom went a little nuts when she mis-overheard something I said [She says I said "If it weren't for the fact that my parents are supporting me, I'd move back to L.A."-that sounds a little harsh for me to say. I might have meant, I was drunk at the time, or had said something to the affect of "My parents are driving me crazy"]. She went crazy sort of and went off of me. In an act of trust or whatever to gain back something, I just came out. I laid it all out there. I was honest about the whole me being gay, feeling angry over my family's homophobia and years worth of homophobic statements.
The whole incident has let surface the fact that my mom has emotional problems. Emotional problems that have existed for some time and have surfaced and become inflamed by the fact that I am a raging lesbian. I love my parents because they're my parents; but it's hard for me to go back to the relationship I had with them. I'm different, which means our relationship has changed. My parents seem unable to adjust to this fact and think that I'm fucked up because of this change.
What's more is that I'm starting to regret moving back home. I wish I had stayed out in L.A. I'll be the first one to admit that L.A. isn't perfect; but I miss my friends, I miss the few kids I really got to know, I miss some of my teachers. Not to mention there's this one girl I really really miss. I want to pursue a relationship with her. I'm a retard for leaving her behind.
In light of all the events that have happened, I'm going to start making plans to move back west. It's not going to happen overnight. I'm going to start saving now and making contacts back west so that I can move.
Yes-why watch soaps when you've already got an interesting life?
Major thing that happened; I came out to my parents. Trust me, it was a crash landing type of coming out. Not pleasent; but looking back on it could have been a lot worse. I basically had to come out because my mom went a little nuts when she mis-overheard something I said [She says I said "If it weren't for the fact that my parents are supporting me, I'd move back to L.A."-that sounds a little harsh for me to say. I might have meant, I was drunk at the time, or had said something to the affect of "My parents are driving me crazy"]. She went crazy sort of and went off of me. In an act of trust or whatever to gain back something, I just came out. I laid it all out there. I was honest about the whole me being gay, feeling angry over my family's homophobia and years worth of homophobic statements.
The whole incident has let surface the fact that my mom has emotional problems. Emotional problems that have existed for some time and have surfaced and become inflamed by the fact that I am a raging lesbian. I love my parents because they're my parents; but it's hard for me to go back to the relationship I had with them. I'm different, which means our relationship has changed. My parents seem unable to adjust to this fact and think that I'm fucked up because of this change.
What's more is that I'm starting to regret moving back home. I wish I had stayed out in L.A. I'll be the first one to admit that L.A. isn't perfect; but I miss my friends, I miss the few kids I really got to know, I miss some of my teachers. Not to mention there's this one girl I really really miss. I want to pursue a relationship with her. I'm a retard for leaving her behind.
In light of all the events that have happened, I'm going to start making plans to move back west. It's not going to happen overnight. I'm going to start saving now and making contacts back west so that I can move.
Yes-why watch soaps when you've already got an interesting life?