FUCKING MACS!!!!!
Ok so I am in the Mac lab typing out this HUGE entry, and I needed to use the numbers on the side of the keyboard, so I press the Num Lock button, but on Macs, it is also A FUCKING CLEAR BUTTON!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was literally screaming. Ask Kooch. So now I am in the regular lab in MST. I was singing along to 10,000 miles by Mary Chapin Carpenter. Its a really good song, but Brad Khuns walked in while it was blasting. Oh well. Embarrassment is apart of life.
So science fair sucks flaming ass. That is the long and short of it. I hate it. It makes me all depressed and sad because I feel like a failure. Its not a fun thing to go through. Yes, I know that most of you reading this are going through the same thing as me, but I dont know. I just feel isolated and alone. Like no one knows how much I just want to die right now.
Ah, the power of music. As your sould overflows, it reaches in and pulls some of that unwanted crap out by expressing exactly how you feel right there on my friends iPod. Music expresses exactly how you feel at that moment. It is soooooooo relieving. Has anyone ever wanted to just blast their music and dance through the halls just being there and happy? Oh that would be so much fun. That and speeding down I-5 over the speedlimit by at least 20 through northern California just to go down to San Diego and sit in the sun for a weekend. Stay at a crappy hotel and go to the beach everyday. Just for the ride. Music blasting, windows down, sunglasses on. That would make me so happy. Speaking of things that we wish we had, I wish I had an art studio. Somewhere where I could throw and paint (eventhough I am crap at it) and draw while inspirational music just blarres. somewhere where I could sit for hours on end, undisturbed, peaceful, that would be awesome. I hate being stressed out all of the time. I feel like I have no time for myself. I hate this feeling. That and knowing that I am hated by someone. At this point in time I dont have that feeling which is good. Music is so liberating. I would hate to be stuck with the sciences and the maths. I love how the arts can connect with people. Painting, Drama, Music all of it is so amazing because of the way in can reach inside of you and express how you feel when you arent sure how to. I love MUSIC!!! I LIVE FOR THIS!!!! I want to be an artist. Dreams.
I want to go to the beach so badly. For many of the reasons above, but also because I want out of Portland. Beach towns are so secluded and out of reach. Like "I cant come over, I am going to the beach." Another reason why I want my license. So that I can go places. I would love to just be able to skip town for a day. Go somewhere. Get out.
So science fair sucks flaming ass. That is the long and short of it. I hate it. It makes me all depressed and sad because I feel like a failure. Its not a fun thing to go through. Yes, I know that most of you reading this are going through the same thing as me, but I dont know. I just feel isolated and alone. Like no one knows how much I just want to die right now.
Ah, the power of music. As your sould overflows, it reaches in and pulls some of that unwanted crap out by expressing exactly how you feel right there on my friends iPod. Music expresses exactly how you feel at that moment. It is soooooooo relieving. Has anyone ever wanted to just blast their music and dance through the halls just being there and happy? Oh that would be so much fun. That and speeding down I-5 over the speedlimit by at least 20 through northern California just to go down to San Diego and sit in the sun for a weekend. Stay at a crappy hotel and go to the beach everyday. Just for the ride. Music blasting, windows down, sunglasses on. That would make me so happy. Speaking of things that we wish we had, I wish I had an art studio. Somewhere where I could throw and paint (eventhough I am crap at it) and draw while inspirational music just blarres. somewhere where I could sit for hours on end, undisturbed, peaceful, that would be awesome. I hate being stressed out all of the time. I feel like I have no time for myself. I hate this feeling. That and knowing that I am hated by someone. At this point in time I dont have that feeling which is good. Music is so liberating. I would hate to be stuck with the sciences and the maths. I love how the arts can connect with people. Painting, Drama, Music all of it is so amazing because of the way in can reach inside of you and express how you feel when you arent sure how to. I love MUSIC!!! I LIVE FOR THIS!!!! I want to be an artist. Dreams.
I want to go to the beach so badly. For many of the reasons above, but also because I want out of Portland. Beach towns are so secluded and out of reach. Like "I cant come over, I am going to the beach." Another reason why I want my license. So that I can go places. I would love to just be able to skip town for a day. Go somewhere. Get out.