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Wow. There are two and a half weeks left in school and I promise that they can't come too soon. A whole bunch of people are ready for summer, and I am deffiantely one of them. Tonight, my mom has this meeting out at school (where I am now) and she and I went out to dinner. It was nice, but we got on the subject of prom and I literally broke down. I am so confused and it is just the icing on the cake for me right now. When things I cant controll are outta whack, for some reason I freak. Oh well. I should know by now that some things are just flat out of my control. I felt like such a loser tho. I was just sitting in the middle of Trattoria (fab italian over by Fred Meyer and *$) with tears rolling down my face. My mom and I get the check and leave, and I was feeling better because I would just be able to veg when I got home, but she said that there wasent time and besides, I had to finish my homework. I was thinking 'ok fuck the homework. I WONT DO IT!!!!!' Then we got into school and we kept talking and she said, "You look like you need a hug." and just as she gets a hold of me I have to make a smart ass comment..."I just need a vacation." which is a totally true statement, but she takes it the wrong way and tells me that if I dont want a hug I just have to say which is the eqivilant of her saying "shut the fuck up. Stop complaining" and obviously hurt, I try to explain my self by telling her that I am under a TON of stress right now. "well that will be over in two and a half weeks" and again I have to make a smart ass comment "Then I will have five hours of work every day." She litterally shut down. wouldnt talk, just turned and walked away. I HAVE BEEN FUCKING REJECTED BY MY FUCKING CONTROL FREAK MOTHER WHO REFUSES TO LEAVE MY FINALS SCHEDULE ALONE AND LET ME RELAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I should not be so mean to this laptop. Deri Bash will have my head for the abuse I have inflicted on it just in this entry. I would like to thank all of my extremely suppotrtive friends. They are the best. I love you all. Thank you for putting up with me and loving me even at my shittiest hour. And you can ask any of them (Dag) this has been a FUCKING LONG HOUR. I mean like about a half a year. We could go on and get into my brother, but that would take even longer. Thanks for reading my essay. I feel better...do you?
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I should not be so mean to this laptop. Deri Bash will have my head for the abuse I have inflicted on it just in this entry. I would like to thank all of my extremely suppotrtive friends. They are the best. I love you all. Thank you for putting up with me and loving me even at my shittiest hour. And you can ask any of them (Dag) this has been a FUCKING LONG HOUR. I mean like about a half a year. We could go on and get into my brother, but that would take even longer. Thanks for reading my essay. I feel better...do you?
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