Well I'm not Dead but...
So I've been in lurk-mode, and I've been a bit reclusive on IM and I've not been productive at all...
Medically, I... I'm still not clear on what's wrong. My hormone levels are all out of whack for some reason and I'm bleeding internally but they're not sure from where, precisely, or exactly what's causing it but most people (not necessarily doctors) seem to think it's an ulcer, though whether it's my stomach or my colon no one can say as of yet, but the doc thinks stomach. And the scary part is I've let this sit and fester for the better part of 7 years...
Yeah.. I know.. not the smartest... but it ain't killed me yet so... but unfortunately it's getting worse as of late, due to the high-stress lifestyle I lead now, juggling work and a paycheck too small to fully cover rent/utilities/other bills every month, work hours that range from 25-38 hours a week, the divorce I can't afford to get started, on top of ten million other things...
My mother lost a breast to cancer, and my Great Uncle died not long ago from a combination of lung cancer and brain cancer... and with everyone in my family apparently "coming down with it", I'm a little freaked out to be finding blood (and rather copious amounts of it at times) when I'm not having my monthly houseguest.
Otherwise it's just... an overwhelming lethargy. I've given up on attempting to do commissions and I really do apologize chibi_veneficus, and when I finally get around to getting the roses done we'll call it a gift instead, okay?
So if you read through the gross TMI of my medical worries and whining, kudos to you and it makes me feel loved that you'd read it at all, and I'll put a lot of spaces between here and the next part to spare those who don't want to hear the yucky because really I don't blame you.
Still with me?
Cool.
So a while back I saw this post by justbolts and I thought it'd be a good way to try to kick myself back into writing because I haven't been able to focus on Anything so I'm going to take a page from her book and give it a try, though I make no promises.
1) Pick one of my fics or since that lacks a lot of options, one of my drabbles or snippets, or my few fics from ffnet, any of them.
2) Request a future or past scene set in that fic-verse with any characters you want.
3) Wait for me to write 500(+/-) words of said scene.
4) ?????
5) Profit
I have the weekend off so I'm hoping this will inspire me to write again while I have downtime, but I make no promises because we all know I rarely manage to finish what I start, especially when I'm depressed... But I'm hopeful.
Medically, I... I'm still not clear on what's wrong. My hormone levels are all out of whack for some reason and I'm bleeding internally but they're not sure from where, precisely, or exactly what's causing it but most people (not necessarily doctors) seem to think it's an ulcer, though whether it's my stomach or my colon no one can say as of yet, but the doc thinks stomach. And the scary part is I've let this sit and fester for the better part of 7 years...
Yeah.. I know.. not the smartest... but it ain't killed me yet so... but unfortunately it's getting worse as of late, due to the high-stress lifestyle I lead now, juggling work and a paycheck too small to fully cover rent/utilities/other bills every month, work hours that range from 25-38 hours a week, the divorce I can't afford to get started, on top of ten million other things...
My mother lost a breast to cancer, and my Great Uncle died not long ago from a combination of lung cancer and brain cancer... and with everyone in my family apparently "coming down with it", I'm a little freaked out to be finding blood (and rather copious amounts of it at times) when I'm not having my monthly houseguest.
Otherwise it's just... an overwhelming lethargy. I've given up on attempting to do commissions and I really do apologize chibi_veneficus, and when I finally get around to getting the roses done we'll call it a gift instead, okay?
So if you read through the gross TMI of my medical worries and whining, kudos to you and it makes me feel loved that you'd read it at all, and I'll put a lot of spaces between here and the next part to spare those who don't want to hear the yucky because really I don't blame you.
Still with me?
Cool.
So a while back I saw this post by justbolts and I thought it'd be a good way to try to kick myself back into writing because I haven't been able to focus on Anything so I'm going to take a page from her book and give it a try, though I make no promises.
1) Pick one of my fics or since that lacks a lot of options, one of my drabbles or snippets, or my few fics from ffnet, any of them.
2) Request a future or past scene set in that fic-verse with any characters you want.
3) Wait for me to write 500(+/-) words of said scene.
4) ?????
5) Profit
I have the weekend off so I'm hoping this will inspire me to write again while I have downtime, but I make no promises because we all know I rarely manage to finish what I start, especially when I'm depressed... But I'm hopeful.