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Here I go:
I hate the musical. I hate the show, I hate my part in the show, and I hate having my feet constantly stepped on by freshmen boys. Each practice gets me more and more upset; I didn't drop out of the show because I thought it would get more fun, but so far, no go. Now I am kind of regretting that decision.
I hate that I have been sick for a week and a half. Honestly, I had forgotten how obnoxious being sick but going about your daily routine anyways is (although I do acknowledge that I am lucky I CAN go about my daily life, which many sick people can't).
I hate that I have a calc test tomorrow that I am bound to fail. I hate math; it hates me right back. It has the unique ability of any of my subjects to make me feel dumb, anxious, and angered/saddened all at once. Congratulations, math!
I hate that there was a lock-down at school today, so I missed biology the day before the test, and Chris couldn't come and spend some time with me and some of my friends.
I hate that my ipod wasn't charged, either. Bah!
I hate that I have been so busy I've completely forgotten about homecoming; leaving me dress-les, date-less and plans-less.
I hate college applications. I feel like I'm not going to get in anywhere, and the process is so frustruating that I want to explode. The next question I hear about how diversity has impacted me, or a setback I've had and how I've overcome it, or any other recycled prompt that makes me feel like an unoriginal and incompetent writer, is going to get bitch-slapped (at least it would if I could bitch-slap a question).
. . . . Whew. That's better.
I'm really sorry to vent like that, guys, but I had to get it out somewhere. I guess typing it out is kind of theraputic. Thanks for listening, cyberspace.
On the brightside, I love my friends. I love my family. I love that some of my senior pictures came out halfway decent. I love the vast majority of my classes. I love that forensics is about to start. And I love that none of my problems are that major, and that eventually, they too shall pass.
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