Good things DO come to those who wait.
I'm happy, finally happy. Still pissy over things but happy. I'm happy with Stan in my life. I'm pissy with all the cunts who fucked me over, but they will get their come uppance seeing as retribution always happens which is great. Although being at my dads recently is getting me down again. The constant piss taking, snide remarks here and there gets me down. I know he's only joking but he goes too far sometimes. Plus a "friend" keeps taking the piss whenever I see him. As if he has a man crush on Stan. Asked if I'd seen the pics from last week. "yeah they look fucking awful", yeah I have enough trouble dealing with my weight (which i've found out IS medical) as it is so quit taking every opportunity to fucking mention it. Quit reminding me that I'm this big, don't you think I feel disgusted with myself?
ANYWAYS! back to being happy, I think the meds have a small hand in the happiness though. Zyban can do that to a person seeing as they are anti-depressants, but at least I've stopped smoking. Everytime I smell cigarette smoke now I feel sick and think I'm going to vomit. I suppose the smoking ban was a blessing in someways but Zyban cut all of your cravings out so I don't really want to eat (no thats not why I'm fat thats personal so don't fucking ask I'll tell you if I want you to know),I don't eat a lot as it is. Meat makes me feel sick, fruit and veg sort of look appealing now but I hate the earthy taste of veg. I can taste the fucking ground on every piece of veg I eat except sweetcorn, but thats grown out of the ground. Tomatos are a massive no no.
Thinking about it, does anyone wanna help me work out? I still ain't motivated for that yet.
ANYWAYS! back to being happy, I think the meds have a small hand in the happiness though. Zyban can do that to a person seeing as they are anti-depressants, but at least I've stopped smoking. Everytime I smell cigarette smoke now I feel sick and think I'm going to vomit. I suppose the smoking ban was a blessing in someways but Zyban cut all of your cravings out so I don't really want to eat (no thats not why I'm fat thats personal so don't fucking ask I'll tell you if I want you to know),I don't eat a lot as it is. Meat makes me feel sick, fruit and veg sort of look appealing now but I hate the earthy taste of veg. I can taste the fucking ground on every piece of veg I eat except sweetcorn, but thats grown out of the ground. Tomatos are a massive no no.
Thinking about it, does anyone wanna help me work out? I still ain't motivated for that yet.