Update
Postive: I realized that my problems are not going to be solved by losing weight. Yes I'm fat, yes I need to lose weight, and I'm aware that I need to and I'm doing something about it. However. Being thin won't make me a more well adjusted person. If I had a magic wand and could make my weight vanish it wouldn't make me happy.
The PROCESS of losing weight, of eating healthy, lifestyle changes, and exercise is going to make me happy and healthy because I'll have more energy and I do actually like exercise, I just don't do enough.
But I'm loved and I'm worthy of love.
So there!
Negative: I read up on growing pains. Apparently they usually happen at night and are gone in the day and are muscular not joint related. I remember my joints aching, all day long, and being exhausted. That was when I was 11, I got better! Then at 16/17 came down with fibromyalgia, but I was never really right. Especially with my knees.
My pain at 11 should have been treated more seriously, but from what I can tell? If a joint isn't swollen and red then it can't be serious or real.
I'm so angry right now I could spit.
The PROCESS of losing weight, of eating healthy, lifestyle changes, and exercise is going to make me happy and healthy because I'll have more energy and I do actually like exercise, I just don't do enough.
But I'm loved and I'm worthy of love.
So there!
Negative: I read up on growing pains. Apparently they usually happen at night and are gone in the day and are muscular not joint related. I remember my joints aching, all day long, and being exhausted. That was when I was 11, I got better! Then at 16/17 came down with fibromyalgia, but I was never really right. Especially with my knees.
My pain at 11 should have been treated more seriously, but from what I can tell? If a joint isn't swollen and red then it can't be serious or real.
I'm so angry right now I could spit.