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Things that are happening in my life.
I've turned a corner in my life. My anxiety is a lot better since I actually, you know, got help for it. My self esteem is still mostly in the toliet but it's better than it once was and seems to be slowly climbing upwards, My life has a routine to it and I've actually got some creativity back. I have however, for the moment lost my libido. If it returns I shall be a lot happier.
I don't know what happened exactly but I burst into tears for no real reason one day, really sobbed, and since then have been on the way up. I'm still going to have moments and days when it's not so good, for instance my fibromyalgia was really really really bad this week and finally ended with me feeling completely broken yesterday, which meant my mood was not great. I'm better today but still really paying for the week of pushing myself through my fibromyalgia.
It's all about finding balance, as well as finding out what I truely believe, because I'm a scientific person (at times) and try to be logical I thought I didn't really believe in magic and Pagan gods anymore yadda yadda yadda...and yeah that works except I still feel deep in my heart that Brigid the Irish Goddess, is with me and always has been.
Yes it's illogical and yes I can argue with myself about how it's just a delusion etc etc...but when it really comes down to it I still believe. I suppose that's the definition of faith.
Anyways, that's what's up with me.
I've turned a corner in my life. My anxiety is a lot better since I actually, you know, got help for it. My self esteem is still mostly in the toliet but it's better than it once was and seems to be slowly climbing upwards, My life has a routine to it and I've actually got some creativity back. I have however, for the moment lost my libido. If it returns I shall be a lot happier.
I don't know what happened exactly but I burst into tears for no real reason one day, really sobbed, and since then have been on the way up. I'm still going to have moments and days when it's not so good, for instance my fibromyalgia was really really really bad this week and finally ended with me feeling completely broken yesterday, which meant my mood was not great. I'm better today but still really paying for the week of pushing myself through my fibromyalgia.
It's all about finding balance, as well as finding out what I truely believe, because I'm a scientific person (at times) and try to be logical I thought I didn't really believe in magic and Pagan gods anymore yadda yadda yadda...and yeah that works except I still feel deep in my heart that Brigid the Irish Goddess, is with me and always has been.
Yes it's illogical and yes I can argue with myself about how it's just a delusion etc etc...but when it really comes down to it I still believe. I suppose that's the definition of faith.
Anyways, that's what's up with me.