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I take a break from my old life.
And all I want now is to concentrate on my drawing.
And even more importantly, to recover.
I am tired.
In the mood for a movie this weekend. Just myself in the theatre. With no others by my side. With a heartwrenching movie, I will cry for all I want. I hope this would make myself feel better.
I wanna give up on saving myself. Few days back, I struggled with this thought. I have saved myself so many times in the past but look what I have landed myself in. I have confidence in myself but I am tired cos' I never seem to break the circle. And I thought I should just give up. Seriously, for once, maybe it would seem more right for me to give up on myself. How many more times do I have to save myself from this?
With one foot in the air, I leap off from great heights. I really don't care what will happen to me. I am lossing all control in this freefall. And I fall, and fall, and fall, at such rapid speed and I do not care at all.
Melancholy, and tired.
I won't tell you I would be fine this time round cos' I can't even promise myself to work this out again. Nothing life-threatening here cos' I love life.
Just don't break my fall.
And all I want now is to concentrate on my drawing.
And even more importantly, to recover.
I am tired.
In the mood for a movie this weekend. Just myself in the theatre. With no others by my side. With a heartwrenching movie, I will cry for all I want. I hope this would make myself feel better.
I wanna give up on saving myself. Few days back, I struggled with this thought. I have saved myself so many times in the past but look what I have landed myself in. I have confidence in myself but I am tired cos' I never seem to break the circle. And I thought I should just give up. Seriously, for once, maybe it would seem more right for me to give up on myself. How many more times do I have to save myself from this?
With one foot in the air, I leap off from great heights. I really don't care what will happen to me. I am lossing all control in this freefall. And I fall, and fall, and fall, at such rapid speed and I do not care at all.
Melancholy, and tired.
I won't tell you I would be fine this time round cos' I can't even promise myself to work this out again. Nothing life-threatening here cos' I love life.
Just don't break my fall.