Whassup.
I've been in such a fog for such a long time. I'm still waiting for it to pop. That's my apology. I'm trying, blog.
I want to say that so much has happened, but that's not really true. A moderate amount of stuff has happened. I've been here, I've been there. I spend a lot of time worrying. I've applied for SSI and been denied and redone that although I don't think much will come of it now. I'm having insurance issues, but I think those are okay for the time being. Phew. I pay my loans now. 150$ a month.
I feel like if my insurance and social security were to work out, my life will be relatively normal again. I've got enough with feeling how I do. I have only so much loan excess to pay off my loans and I am not able to work or go to school. What happens when my excess runs out? I'm hosed.
I don't know what the plan is yet. Ideally, I get better and I go to be the best damn pharmacist, chemist, whatever. But now, since I am so worried about money, if I go back, I feel like I would go to a cheap school. I thought UMO was in the relatively cheaper zone, but I don't know, maybe I'm jaded now. Community college for me, but then what? What do I major in? I do not know. For now, I just don't think about the future. I'm totally a "today" person.
Anyhoozle. I'm on a diet, so that's cool. I've gained like a million pounds since leaving school and I've always been sort of pudgy. Forty pounds from here, maybe. Let's hope! I basically am just keeping track of what I eat and not eating a lot. Calorie counting mostly. Not a lot of that carb business. That's multi-variable. Eh. Like, last week, though, well, over a period of ten days, I lost like 6 pounds. Gained 3 back but whatever. At least I know how to do it.
Oh! Zahatar! Or Za'atar or something. My aunt showed me it. She's up and over from California and her husband is from Saudi Arabia and she introduced me to this spice. She mixes it with olive oil and puts it on pita bread. You can have it with tabouli salad, feta cheese and kalamata olives all at once. Oh, seriously, it's so good. I'm obsessed with it. It's probably where the three pounds came from.
And dude, edfinancial is on my ass. They keep calling me. I won't answer, either. I'm current. I have money due on the 15th. Today is the 5th. I'm going to pay. They called three times in a row last night. When you do pick up, there's a huge pause or they hang up. Dicks.
I might see Harry Potter today. Kind of excited. Kid movie or not, I don't care. Transformers, maybe. Either. Just the fact that it's a "big" movie.
Wheeeeee.
I want to say that so much has happened, but that's not really true. A moderate amount of stuff has happened. I've been here, I've been there. I spend a lot of time worrying. I've applied for SSI and been denied and redone that although I don't think much will come of it now. I'm having insurance issues, but I think those are okay for the time being. Phew. I pay my loans now. 150$ a month.
I feel like if my insurance and social security were to work out, my life will be relatively normal again. I've got enough with feeling how I do. I have only so much loan excess to pay off my loans and I am not able to work or go to school. What happens when my excess runs out? I'm hosed.
I don't know what the plan is yet. Ideally, I get better and I go to be the best damn pharmacist, chemist, whatever. But now, since I am so worried about money, if I go back, I feel like I would go to a cheap school. I thought UMO was in the relatively cheaper zone, but I don't know, maybe I'm jaded now. Community college for me, but then what? What do I major in? I do not know. For now, I just don't think about the future. I'm totally a "today" person.
Anyhoozle. I'm on a diet, so that's cool. I've gained like a million pounds since leaving school and I've always been sort of pudgy. Forty pounds from here, maybe. Let's hope! I basically am just keeping track of what I eat and not eating a lot. Calorie counting mostly. Not a lot of that carb business. That's multi-variable. Eh. Like, last week, though, well, over a period of ten days, I lost like 6 pounds. Gained 3 back but whatever. At least I know how to do it.
Oh! Zahatar! Or Za'atar or something. My aunt showed me it. She's up and over from California and her husband is from Saudi Arabia and she introduced me to this spice. She mixes it with olive oil and puts it on pita bread. You can have it with tabouli salad, feta cheese and kalamata olives all at once. Oh, seriously, it's so good. I'm obsessed with it. It's probably where the three pounds came from.
And dude, edfinancial is on my ass. They keep calling me. I won't answer, either. I'm current. I have money due on the 15th. Today is the 5th. I'm going to pay. They called three times in a row last night. When you do pick up, there's a huge pause or they hang up. Dicks.
I might see Harry Potter today. Kind of excited. Kid movie or not, I don't care. Transformers, maybe. Either. Just the fact that it's a "big" movie.
Wheeeeee.