Where were you all my life? 55/?
Chapter 55 - After the adrenaline
Pairings: Yunjae, little hints of Yoosu and Changmin / Lee Jun Ki
Warnings: mention rape and abuse, some violence, smut.
Summary:
Kim Jaejoong is forced to do business with the mafia who keep threatening him. Changmin, Junsu and Yoochun are responsible for his security. Jung Yunho is a cop investigating a ( Read more... )
Pairings: Yunjae, little hints of Yoosu and Changmin / Lee Jun Ki
Warnings: mention rape and abuse, some violence, smut.
Summary:
Kim Jaejoong is forced to do business with the mafia who keep threatening him. Changmin, Junsu and Yoochun are responsible for his security. Jung Yunho is a cop investigating a ( Read more... )
Step back and breath and... let's see from there. A little reality dose before I go back to the fanfiction spirit of the story.
I came up with this little story after reading a couple fics where one of the characters was raped (by his love interest, I think) and it was filed under "he loves me so much he can't control himself" and two lines down in the story they were living happily ever after. I was like No, No, No, that is not how it works. Even between a husband and wife, if some shit happens and they go back to being happy, the memory is right there, ready to attack and surface and show its ugly scars at any moment. You need to deal with it to truly move on.
But ok, you only get one real angst chapter. I wanna get to the sugar too.
Thank you for enjoying the action scenes. They are what I find more difficult to write, along with sex scenes.
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I've read a lot and I mean A LOT of Yunjae fics in which the rape victim (in most cases, JJ) almost instantly falls in love with the rapist (in most cases, YH). The usual reasoning is that YH is sooooo sorry and sooooo regretful and he reeeeeally loves JJ to the moon and back, yada yada yada, therefore they should just get together and live happily ever after because happy endings yay! Like that's enough to undo all the hurt, betrayal, trauma, fear, shock, etc. There's a reason why there's that saying that goes "sometimes love just ain't enough."
Ah but you did really well with the action scenes. I'll admit I was a little overwhelmed several times throughout the story as there are so many characters! But that's more on me, as I read a lot of fics in between your chapters, and characters that I'm not too familiar with just don't register on my radar ^^;; long comment is long orz off to read the new chapter! Thanks for the insight, btw! And yes, some sugar, please 8D
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I admit they are sort of a guilty pleasure because I know the "bad" guy will turn into a good guy and all that but still... I'm reading two stories on AFF right now where there is such a description of Yunho as bad guy that it is just... It's like the author picked up on an episode from Criminal Minds or something equally creepy. Kinda like you're reading the account about a survivor from a serial rapist or a serial sex killer. It goes to an extreme that then the redemption of Yunho never feels enough, never feels believable unless you sort of block your mind to forget the initial chapters.
I just put my head into "reading fiction mode" and try to enjoy the story for the story but I do get pissed sometimes. Ladies, you ever meet a guy like that in real life, please do remember: Run for your lives!
Excessive jealousy and all that unnecessary violence does not mean "oh, he just loves me so much", nah, it's an abuser preparing you for more abuse in the future.
And crap, even I am writing a fucked up story. At least I don't have Jae falling for Siwon cause he just wants Jae so so so much.
Thank you so much for liking the action scenes. As for the number of characters... LOL :D
I had to get a index of characters cause I'd forget the name of the actors. And I think that's what makes it harder to remember who is who here, fics usually use less characters and mostly guys from k-pop groups. I used a lot of actors which is not so common.
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