*Getting ready to go to bed*------Hopefully

[mindymango]

Well, today has been a very long day. Basically because Kaleigh didn't sleep worth a sh*t last night. She slept like 2 hours all together, she woke up like every 30 minutes- 1 hour. She has been fussy all day. Her teeth must be finally trying to come thru. Thats all I can figure. She's not got any symptoms of a cold. Just fussy, grouchy, sleepy, and she's got diarreah (sp*?). So I guess it is just her teeth. Hopefully she will sleep tonight. I sure hope so. Brandon gets monday, tuesday and wednesday off work. So that will be good I can't wait. My crazy mother and grandmother have been calling trying to get me to I guess just have something to do with them. Which will NEVER happen. I stay as far away from them as possible. Unfortunatly we live in the same state. Mom must have run out of drugs for awhile. Sorry ya know??? I grew up in that mess I know how it was, and I'll be damned if I will expose my daughter to that bullshit. I finally have a real "family" now. One that actually does care and love each other. Kinda funny I married into it huh?! I am so grateful. All I ever wanted growing up was a family. Now that I have one, I'm not gonna let them ruin it. It's like they just can't stand to see someone doing good in life and not just wasting their life away by using drugs, giving their kids away, and marrying someone their daughters age---who tries to kill the whole family ( more than once) And to beat it all---Going back to that person. Man it just pisses me off. My mom always chose a man over her children. A man who was worthless, wouldn't hold down a job, beat her, her kids and tried to kill them all on several occasions. It just makes me so mad......then when she gets off her high, she tries to be a mommy again. I don't think so bitch. She gave up all her kids. Now let her live her life. She already put us through enough. I've moved on. I'm better than that. Way better. At least my daughter will know who her daddy is. My mom couldn't even tell me who mine was. It just makes me mad that she does all that shit and then still expects people to wanna have her be a part of their life. It's crazy. I just don't understand. Hell, I just need to stop writing I guess. It just pisses me off. I guess I am going to get off here and try to get Kaleigh to go to sleep. hopefully we won't be rocking in the rocking chair all night again or walking around the house! Hope everyone has a good night!
Jessica <3 Brandon <3 Kaleigh