Jul 24, 2010 17:03
Have just come from having my knee poked and prodded and MRI'd.
Hospital scales weighed me at 60.6kg. That's 1kg heavier than I was when I first joined the gym a year ago. Since then I have watched what I've eaten - attended the gym *at least* 3 times a week - sometimes doing more than one class a day. I exercise as hard as my joints let me, but I hurt all the time, and I am hungry all the time, yet I have lost nothing and am pretty much still wearing the same size clothes....
I *know* I'm not the largest person in the world, but I don't want to get any bigger, and ideally I'd like to get a little bit smaller, but I've run out of ideas, and don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I do various types of exercise - dancing, circuits and weights. I could probably eat more healthily if I could ever learn to love fruit and veg - but my diet is not *that* bad, and I never snack, and rarely if ever have desserts (if I have anything sweet it often replaces a meal, rather than following one), and I write down everything I eat in a diary.
I can't up the intensity of my exercise, because my knee would not take it, and my hip is also painful nearly all the time, and my back joins in for good measure.
I currently do 1hr Monday, 1hr Tuesday, 2hrs Wednesday, 2hrs Saturday and sometimes I do 2hrs on either Thursday or Sunday (and sometimes both) at the gym.
All I want to do is tone up and lose the flab, get back to being comfortably a 10.
Part of me wonders why I bother with all the effort, when I basically feel like I haven't achieved anything out of it other than being fitter.
Please excuse the pathetic self pity, just having a bad day.....