what a birthday...
So my birthday has been really bad this year. I'm starting to lose one of the best friends I've had in a really long time. One who actually cares about me. First the party that I had been planning for about a month gets ruined because some kid decides that he wants to tell her about it inadvertently. Then she says that I don't spend time with her anymore because I am blowing her off. And it's sad because I don't do it intentionally. I love her to death and hate that this is happening. Am I really a bad person? That is what I am starting to think. I forget to invite her to a "party" I am going to have, even though it's just courtious to even when you know she may not go. I really don't know why I do these things. It just makes me end up losing the good things in my life, the few that are there.