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i hate not knowing where i'll be a year from now. it's always bothered me, for as long as i can remember. so the only way around it is i make up scenarios:
-if i get into any of the schools i am applying to i will obviously go
-if not, i will move home, join a gym, go back to acting school & get an agent.
either option will make me happy, so i guess those are the best things to think about. but i don't know what sort of attitude i should have. should i a) say "i will get in"? or b) say "it's okay if i don't get in anywhere." i was taught to always think positively and to say that you will get what you want because then the "universe" will hear me and it will happen. however, personal experience has taught me that if it's too good to be true, well, that's just what it is. and that the more i say i will get something, the more upset i will be if it doesn't work out.
i hate these complexes.
-if i get into any of the schools i am applying to i will obviously go
-if not, i will move home, join a gym, go back to acting school & get an agent.
either option will make me happy, so i guess those are the best things to think about. but i don't know what sort of attitude i should have. should i a) say "i will get in"? or b) say "it's okay if i don't get in anywhere." i was taught to always think positively and to say that you will get what you want because then the "universe" will hear me and it will happen. however, personal experience has taught me that if it's too good to be true, well, that's just what it is. and that the more i say i will get something, the more upset i will be if it doesn't work out.
i hate these complexes.