SERIOUSLY?!
So, over the summer, I was out with Salman and Ryan Moore and talking about my stepdad's friend Brian, who we were all convinced was in love with me and waiting for me.
And I said something to the effect of "He's just waiting for Jonathan to screw up enough that he can swoop in and take me."
And Salman says "ISN'T THAT WAS EVERY GUY IS WAITING FOR?! Jonathan to screw up and you to be single again!?!"
I didn't take him seriously. I thought, no way. Jonathan is the only guy that could ever love me and blah blah.
And here I sit. I can actually name 4-5 guys that at least want to get in my pants.
So, not equating sex and love, because they are not equal, if someone can be attracted to me, then couldn't they also be interested enough to date me? Well, I'm going to go with yes.
I have 2 men in waiting now. There was Wade. And I don't know if he's still thinking about us being together or not. But he definitely wants in my pants. And the other one. We'll call him Godfrey. He and I adore each other. He stopped being a cheater. He's learning how to be in a relationship without making the other person want to shoot themselves. He makes me laugh. Wade and I always complained to each other. And it was fun but we needed something to complain about to talk to each other. Godfrey will say something retarded just to get me to smile. He sees the faults he made in Jonathan. Which frustrates him. So he's learning. He's not ready to be in a relationship.
Wait wait wait. I'm not breaking up with Jonathan. I'm just getting thoughts out about my future.
As it is now, I don't see Jonathan in my future. I don't want to take care of my next boyfriend. I kind of feel like that would be the case with Godfrey. He can take care of himself but I would be the maker of the dollars and I would kind of feel like the responsible one. Not that he isn't responsible.
Just. I don't know.
Not like I have to choose now anyway.
What if's are no fun...
And I said something to the effect of "He's just waiting for Jonathan to screw up enough that he can swoop in and take me."
And Salman says "ISN'T THAT WAS EVERY GUY IS WAITING FOR?! Jonathan to screw up and you to be single again!?!"
I didn't take him seriously. I thought, no way. Jonathan is the only guy that could ever love me and blah blah.
And here I sit. I can actually name 4-5 guys that at least want to get in my pants.
So, not equating sex and love, because they are not equal, if someone can be attracted to me, then couldn't they also be interested enough to date me? Well, I'm going to go with yes.
I have 2 men in waiting now. There was Wade. And I don't know if he's still thinking about us being together or not. But he definitely wants in my pants. And the other one. We'll call him Godfrey. He and I adore each other. He stopped being a cheater. He's learning how to be in a relationship without making the other person want to shoot themselves. He makes me laugh. Wade and I always complained to each other. And it was fun but we needed something to complain about to talk to each other. Godfrey will say something retarded just to get me to smile. He sees the faults he made in Jonathan. Which frustrates him. So he's learning. He's not ready to be in a relationship.
Wait wait wait. I'm not breaking up with Jonathan. I'm just getting thoughts out about my future.
As it is now, I don't see Jonathan in my future. I don't want to take care of my next boyfriend. I kind of feel like that would be the case with Godfrey. He can take care of himself but I would be the maker of the dollars and I would kind of feel like the responsible one. Not that he isn't responsible.
Just. I don't know.
Not like I have to choose now anyway.
What if's are no fun...