fresh start
i have a few goals for the year and am already on the path to make a few of them happen. i definitely want to make the most of this time in my life to grow more in love and closer than i've ever been to God. i want to know what His will is for my life and can only figure that out by spending every day in His Word and talking to Him. I have a good job but am having doubts about whether or not i am really meant to be a journalist. i find myself wondering if it is something i just happen to be good at, if it is something i love, or if it is what God wants me to do with the rest of my life. my desire and passion for a new place, being on my own, and traveling has also been on my heart and mind quite a bit lately. i am still contemplating finishing and submitting an application to the Peace Corps. i have so many things i am interested in or want to do and feel like i am being held back, since i can not do all or most of them at this time for several reasons. my spirit feels restless and discontent with my current situation and i am finally starting to work on the things i can control to bring my spirit to a more peaceful state. one of my most ambitious (and most challenging) goals for this year, is to not date at all. i have needed to fully heal from some painful parts of my past and have never fully taken the time or effort to address those scars. my other reason for not dating, is that i have made some bad relationship choices lately and keep repeating some of the same mistakes. if i am going to follow through on putting God first and foremost in my life, i can not do that and be chasing guys or having any type of dating relationship. just since Jan. 2, i have been happier and more at peace than i have been in a very long time. i feel like even with the parts of my life that i do not like now, that i am finally on the right path and heading towards becoming the woman that i truely want to be.