A New Beginning and a Changing Wind
I have been silent for about a year now and I think it's about time that I become vocal. Okay, so I've graduated from West Georgia, moved to Atlanta, and made a whole lot of new friends (friends I am seriously thinking about filtering...again). I am so mentally balanced right now and unfortunately, my roommate has a BIG problem with that.
I think I am starting this up again is because of my roommate. I will keep his identity hidden as much as I can, but I can totally see me slipping up here and there. Anyway, my roommate is completely neurotic and obsessive (far beyond that any normal person). I keep telling him to lighten up and let loose, but he won't because he says I am the one making him mentally unstable. Where that maybe true, I take no responsibility for that because he shouldn't worry as much as he does about things. When I tell him that things will be fine...things will be fine. I allow two things to guide me...God and faith/my gut. Fortunately, they work together as one so really I allow one thing to guide me. Anyway, I have been thinking a lot about how things are and after my cancer and appendix scare I believe that I need to live my life before my life is gone. Something I don't think many people especially my roommate truly understand.
It has come to my attention that I can no longer live with the person I held so dear to me for so long. He and I are too far away on the spectrum to continue to live together in harmony. He is so obsessed with his success that it's going to destroy him. His mother, family and the few friends he has will all be gone. His mother will pass, his family has already turned, and his friends...well don't really exist to begin with, but they won't be around. ALONE...the one thing he has been writing about for so long will consume him and there is nothing anyone can do about it. I would take some joy in it, but I didn't think our time table was this short. Oh who am I kidding...I knew...that's why when he said he and I were going to live together for at least 4 years I was like "uh huh" and rolling my eyes.
Being able to know what is coming has been a blessing and a curse. A double edge sword and once again I see my friendship with a dear friend slowly coming to an end. His drive is too much and it's driving people away. He claims he is humble (not likely) and his career obsessed drive along with his pride will be his end. Life is so much more than a check list and he really needs to realize this fact before it's too late. I have done everything possible short of making his life a living Hell (which I may have to do) just to help him.
Wait, no i don't. I need to just live my life and leave his to him. I have done all I can and now I am just going to watch. It ends today. From now on my goal is to settle my debt with him and let him go his own way. That is what needs to happen. He is not blessed like his famous idols and success will not happen for him without great consequence (not my problem). Poor thing, he will not even know what's happening before it's too late and I won't even stop it. This is something he has to learn alone. There's that word again...ALONE
I think I am starting this up again is because of my roommate. I will keep his identity hidden as much as I can, but I can totally see me slipping up here and there. Anyway, my roommate is completely neurotic and obsessive (far beyond that any normal person). I keep telling him to lighten up and let loose, but he won't because he says I am the one making him mentally unstable. Where that maybe true, I take no responsibility for that because he shouldn't worry as much as he does about things. When I tell him that things will be fine...things will be fine. I allow two things to guide me...God and faith/my gut. Fortunately, they work together as one so really I allow one thing to guide me. Anyway, I have been thinking a lot about how things are and after my cancer and appendix scare I believe that I need to live my life before my life is gone. Something I don't think many people especially my roommate truly understand.
It has come to my attention that I can no longer live with the person I held so dear to me for so long. He and I are too far away on the spectrum to continue to live together in harmony. He is so obsessed with his success that it's going to destroy him. His mother, family and the few friends he has will all be gone. His mother will pass, his family has already turned, and his friends...well don't really exist to begin with, but they won't be around. ALONE...the one thing he has been writing about for so long will consume him and there is nothing anyone can do about it. I would take some joy in it, but I didn't think our time table was this short. Oh who am I kidding...I knew...that's why when he said he and I were going to live together for at least 4 years I was like "uh huh" and rolling my eyes.
Being able to know what is coming has been a blessing and a curse. A double edge sword and once again I see my friendship with a dear friend slowly coming to an end. His drive is too much and it's driving people away. He claims he is humble (not likely) and his career obsessed drive along with his pride will be his end. Life is so much more than a check list and he really needs to realize this fact before it's too late. I have done everything possible short of making his life a living Hell (which I may have to do) just to help him.
Wait, no i don't. I need to just live my life and leave his to him. I have done all I can and now I am just going to watch. It ends today. From now on my goal is to settle my debt with him and let him go his own way. That is what needs to happen. He is not blessed like his famous idols and success will not happen for him without great consequence (not my problem). Poor thing, he will not even know what's happening before it's too late and I won't even stop it. This is something he has to learn alone. There's that word again...ALONE